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come back

2010-03-16T12:07:00.003+08:00

almost a year i last blog..man i even forgot my password to access here..gotta get new songs..try to find a new template etc..have to refresh my memory on how to do all these..

i've more time on my hands now. ended PRCP a few weeks ago..currently waiting for job acceptance and grad..meanwhile helping out at home..n our new home at Pinnacle..today i can finally rest at home..

it's huihui's last week of attachment. hope she can score well. going up to year 2 in about 2 mths' time. while i'll be officially graduating by then..FINALLY!! it has been a long wait..

bitbit is growing bigger man..bitting my stuff everytime..naughty boy! even so..he's still soooooo cute! bitbit calls me 'ah yii'..yar if u're wondering how a rabbit talks...............through my sister's mouth..thats' how it goes :D

today is such a nice cooling weather..feels like a good day for excursion..these few days were like scorching lorr!! im dreaming of a good day to the beach for a bicycle ride + picnic with my dear dear boy..with family of cos would be better :) but..he's too busy for that..sob..somehow this always happens to us..when he is having his term break i'd be doing my attachment..when i have my break aft my attachment..he starts school..and when his break comes again..i'm back to my internship again! n now it's finally over..it's his turn to serve as an intern..MAN!! things like these keep happening..nvm nvm we're coping well..

ok my headache is coming again..been near a week and it doesn't goes away..keep quiet..though im an officially passed out SN but who cares!

ciao~

ending first week of year 3 life

2009-04-24T21:55:00.008+08:00

:)) ended first week..still alright..but towards de end of de week im already starting to feel the stressors coming up soon..haha..gonna be damn busy with ICAs etc..

hope i can take it..im afraid i cant catch up ah..information overload..damn sian one..u'll be like "HUHH? where? what toking?.." zzZ..ok maybe not that stupid..im not THAT slow..

haha see that's YekPei posing with WenJing's glasses on..glasses sounds old..specs la..aiyah nvm la anw WJ is old already..HAHAH!! 2 yrs older :p

have been learning OT stuff..everything from theory to practical..top to bottom..inside out..seriously im quite worried for the coming OT attachment..only ONE student is allowed to enter the theater to assist..so..kinda being thrown into a lost jungle..ehh how can a jungle be lost? yeah wadeva~

tml actually booked my sec sch gfs out..but..hais forget it la..damn sian already..next time ba..tml i'll just enjoy myslf staying at home..

oh u guys rmb Shannen? de one that i had conflict with? haha..that stupid blog thingy..hais..thinking abt it..quite lame..aiyah it's always like this when u look back..actually now school starts already and fortunately we're still in de same clique and grp for projs..we're fine now..but at times..just a little of awkwardness..hopefully it'll go away soon..but it certainly it feels good to befriend ur once-upon-a-time-enemy..haha..im mean..we were at that time..of cos! i hated her n she hated mi too..swearing n all at each other..trying means n ways to get each other down..haha..that's..all over now..and it's the best ending to that kind of 'war' among each other..now i return home with a smile on my face..thanking God that all is well :))

rmb guys..hating someone is very very very bad for health..u keep that feeling inside u..u hate him/her night and day..every min every sec..hoping they get langa by lorry or strike by lightning..wadever u can think of..accumulate all of those negative feelings and thoughts inside u..u'll suffer from severe depressions eventually..God bless..

why make ur own life so sad? u want them to get what they deserve and in de end u backshot urslf..not worth..so..let it go..it may seem like the hardest thing to do on earth..but u're actually fighting against urslf only..let it go n u'll really feel the freedom and a great relief of a BIG burden..yeah im speaking from experience of cos..i've got a lot of cases like this man..haha! yeah im not the guai guai kind of girl luhh..im more of..proud..damn proud..but u noe now getting old le la..time to mature..pple change..and so do i..at least it's good that it's a change for the better..

hais acually really kind of want to go out tml..maybe can ask Hui..but..just now like got conflict ahh..i think she still unhappy..hais so hard to please pple..im mean it's just not me to please pple..maybe i shld offer her the last ice cream i have..aiyah but im so hungry lehh..aiyah later see how things go la..haha..

btw seen our work on top? after so much of hardwork..at least now it's much more like a work of scrapbooking..haha..hope she can pass this lap :)

ok i gtg already..cya guys :))

Les Choristes trailer

2009-04-23T22:36:00.006+08:00

LES CHORISTES

i love this movie :]

their vioce is just so beautiful and never fails to move me with tears..

Jean Baptise is so handsome..oh he's acting as Morhange..and i like Pepinot.."my dad is picking me up on Saturday" he's so cute..haha! :D Clement Mathieu is such a wonderful & passionate teacher..he's so loving to all the naughthy boys..u guys shld watch it :))

still got research to do..so i'll leave the sharing part tml "]

TWO MINUTES LATE

2009-04-21T20:47:00.003+08:00

first lesson today was skills lab @ 8am..haven been waking up so early for class..last year i just skip throughout and stroll in school on 12pm onwards..tsktsk..bad example..dun learn..haha..now im trying hard to make an effort to study and follow well..and guess what? im being marked late for first time offence..and it's freaking TWO MINUTES late only..im so pissed! cant she just close one eye? it's only 2 min..even so..it's just first time offence cant u just be more lenient?? and de best part was that im not late cos by being LATE..im late cos i was given a wrong info of the skills lab room! retarded! if not for looking and searching for the non-existing lab room..i wont be 2 mins LATE!! in de end i saw a classmate of mine walking past..also late..so i just follow her..and the room is just there in front of me..walao ehhhh!!!!! she dun give a damn..zzZZ..

today PM Lee and some Thailand Princess visited our NYP Health Science Block..heard that it's more of in our Simulation Based Learning (SBL) lab room..where de non-living manequin can talk to youuuuu~ haha! creepy thing! u can also feel the heartbeat just like REAL! and breath sounds etc. it's just some training ground where they gif u a case scenario and u wont noe what's gonna happen the nxt min..it's to see if u can gif appropriate prompt treatments to ur patients..there was once i kena as the nurse in charge..and my patient DIED ON ME!!! so sad..haha! i rmb his damn voice "*weak* missy~ missyyy~cannot breathe~ cannot breathe~" us: "wait wait!" wait till die..LOL! ok that was in de past..kan chiong of cos la!! haha!

ok Regina used my fone to take this scary foto..i freaked out when i see this..lol! i dint noe she used it to take this kinda pict..haha! tml gonna learn scrubbing in OT..heard that it's really SCRUB!! it's a damn tedious process..why? i'll tell u guys again..haha! alright im off to complete my sch work..ciao~

1st day of year 3

2009-04-20T21:46:00.010+08:00

ahh today class started at 12pm and ends at 6pm..ok la not bad for the start of the week..but tml my class starts at 8am..ok what can i say..my lab lecturer is kinda particular re our attire..so gotta do up my hair tml..wear pants and no flip flops..hais..hate sitting on the floor..heng it's still considered clean..but de best part is when my leg starts to numb..hate it man..my butt is not 2 pieces of thick cushion lor!! whatever..i have to deal with it..solution >>>tarhan..conclusion >>>sian! the most worrying part is being late for her class..i guess from the way she made clear to all of us..even for first time offence..sorry no chance :)) thank you! i have to really chiong tml morning..

my resolution for being a year 3 student..DO NOT skip any of the lessons..lect/tut/lab everything..be a good student..so that means 100% attendance for all modules..ok please dun be tempted..have to keep in mind..i guess it wont be that tough..haha!

heard that there's this new policy coming up..we have to take our height and weight and calulate our BMI..yepp each of us..some ProHealth Clinic thingy they set up..so if ur BMI is below or over the normal range..there you go..to the clinic..erm it's within the school compound dun worry..ah im the one who should be worried..cos im below!!!!! retarded..how i wish i can gain more bone mass..alright im sure to get in..but nvm..my class has lots of overs! haha! we can all go tgt..lol!

haha today first day of school..for all of us!! so many noobs around..haha!! im like so senior la! cool..i love it..just like when i was promoted to sec 4 years ago..IM THE BOSS NOW :DD u noobcake!!

last night was tidying the mess on my desk..and i sorted out some old & rotting love letters..haha!! so funny! i wonder if i allow them to refresh their memory on what they wrote to me long time ago..they'll bang their head on the wall and wish to die..LOL!

yeahh all with my name on the top cos it's TO: SHANNING :D

aiyah sec sch stuff la..when u're too poor to own a hp or..in my case got confiscated..HAHA! yeah im always in trouble no doubts :)) that's how i learn..through the hard ways..haha! im a tough bitch :> mm im just repeating what Jennifer Garner said in 13 going on 30 :P

man! got so irritated by bro now..why? i really cant stand pple shaking their leg(s)..freaking ugly..it's like..what the heck are u shaking? u having spasm??? it's super duper ugly..really feel like chopping off his legs..ugly boy!! arghh :<

Hui's 'h/w' doing scrapbooking..her employer asked to to unleash her talent within her..HAHA! hmmm but i think that's more like..cut & paste..it's hurting..but kind of the fact..i wonder what kind of remarks will she get..hope she can take it..

ok im off to do my hw..btw my lab manual this sem is like 4 times thicker than the past few sems..it's like..WHAT IS THIS??? im going nuts sooner or later..the topics are so super duper broad!! okok no more no more..im going off..cya! :)) have fun in school or in work..haha! ahh or maybe at home slacking :)

school is starting!

2009-04-19T19:36:00.004+08:00

hi folks..tml is the start of my year 3..not quite sure if im ready for the great challenge..but well what can i do? FACE IT SHANNING!! yeah wadeva~

haha sad Regina..saw her tag telling mi that she has class at 8pm..tsk..damn sian sia! i wonder what time will the whole thing end for her..hah!

today my princess Roxanne was so super duper cute luhh..the whole congregation was praying..and when i looked up i saw her sweet little face smiling brightly and waving hard to catch my attention..damn cute rite! feel like grabbing her over..haha! yeah as soon as i smiled back she got down de bench and ran over to me..haha! treated her a little sweet..and as usual..haha she showed me her mosquito bite on her little calf..haha sweet thing :))

went back choir for my service to God..how should i put it..hais..i have to recognize what i am doing and who i am doing it for..so in this case..it's for the Lord and here i am! back on my service here..yeah i guess i have more reasons to stay in there..it's a blessing from God that i can sing for Him..

so i asked John.."when are we presenting?" he said.."next week", "HUHHH!!!!" yah that was my reaction..everyone looked over..haha! i mean why do i always only have ONE practice before the real thing? but i guess today's practice was ample..anw i can play the chords myslf if i wana refresh my memory :)

over the past 2 weeks of weekends i went out with 2 old friend of mine..and both named Jun Liang..haha! ok one is Jerryboy and the other was Chris..yeah both are nice pple..

ahh yah my timetable..sick man! think tml print in school..what's de point of having a printer with no freaking INK??!?!??!!

haha my pet won first in place..but now dun feel like playing le..damn bored..not interest in it anymore..

ok i've got things waiting for me to do..have a nice week and see you guys again then! :)

catching old times

2009-04-15T13:19:00.009+08:00

Roxanne very cute rite? :)) she's like a little princess..if in future my daughter is this beautiful..lol! i like it when she comes running to find me after her sunday sch..and show me all the crafts she made during class..and her sweets and snacks she 'collected' for the day..once she even showed me her mosquito bites and the little scar she sustained on her leg..haha she's so cute :))

that Sunday Andrew had his baptism..congrats! haha! that's a happy occasion :)

met Jerryboy for dinner after that..lol he's so fun..yar of cos we had fun..mm he treated me that day..i like the food there..it's at Cine the Japanese restaurant..2nd lvl..the one right after u take de escalator up..i've nvr eaten there before..lol he said it was his first time eating there too..haha..i thought he went there before since he's the one who suggested dining there..

ahh btw he mentioned working as a chef at B1 de Cafe Cartel..lol! whaa a chef huhh!! i love chefs! cos i can get delicious food out of them..haha!

he mentioned to me before abt him and his gf..or shld i put it EX-gf..poor Jerryboy..he's too faithful..i don't mean being faithful is no good..but..hais..i just think that it'll be a waste to wait on her..cos even for a 3rd party like mi hearing about what has happened..i dun feel that the outcome will be any better..i've talk to him about it already la..but he insisted on waiting..then..too bad la..i've tried my best..just hope that..he can survive through even for the worst-of-the-worst situation..

ahh right..a few days ago i had a great chat with an old friend of mine back from secondary school..lol! found him on fb..hard to rmb when was the last time we had a chat..haha..ages! okok try counting back the years..let's see..about 6 years? haha! now i felt like a dino..

alright all of a sudden i had craving for kfc chicken!! man!

new timetabe was released..and i cant freaking print it out..why? i dont know..im kinda of like a computer idiot..lol! later korkor come back then ask him help mi wid it luhh..this kind of thing..i always haf to ask guys abt it..alright how can i live without them..hah!

ok here is Pink - Please don't leave me

if im the guy..i WILL definitely leave her..she is..............................................insane & totally scary!!

Da da da da

da da da da

Da da da da da,

I dont know if i can yell any louder,

How many times have i kicked you outta here?

Or said something insulting?

Da da da da da

I can be so mean when i wanna be,

I am capable of really anything,

I could cut you into peices,

But my heart is, broken.

Da da da da da

Please dont leave me [x2]

I always say how i dont need you

But its always gonna come right back to this

Please dont leave me

How did i become so obnoxious,

What is it with you that makes me act like this,

I've never been this nasty,

Can't you tell that this is all just a contest,

The one that wins will be the one that hits the hardest,

But baby i dont mean it,

I mean it, I promise

Da da da da da

Please dont leave me [x2]

I always say how i dont need you

But its always gonna come right back to this

Please dont leave me

I forgot to say outloud,

How beautiful you really are to me,

I cant be without,

You're my perfect little punching bag,

And i need you,

Im sorry.

Da da da da

da da da da

Da da da da da

Please, please dont leave me

Baby please dont leave me (No, dont leave me)

Please dont leave me I always say how i dont need you

But its always gonna come right back to this

Please dont leave me (No, Dont leave me)

I always say how i dont need you,

But its always gonna come right back to this,

Please dont leave me,

Please, Please dont leave me.

Crucifixion - Good Friday

2009-04-10T21:14:00.008+08:00

today is Good Friday - Christ crucifixion

this morning service was at 10 am..
choir sang beautifully..i love the first piece..
message was about Seven Last Words of Jesus

Here are his Seven Words, the last seven expressions of Jesus Christ on the Cross recorded in Scripture.

THE FIRST WORD
"Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they do."
Gospel of Luke 23:34

[父啊！赦免他们，因为他们所作的，他们不晓得]
路23：34

THE SECOND WORD
"Truly, I say to you, today you will be with me in Paradise."
Gospel of Luke 23:43

[我实在告诉你，今日你要同我在乐园里了]
路23：43

THE THIRD WORD
"Jesus said to his mother: "Woman, this is your son". Then he said to the disciple: "This is your mother."
Gospel of John 19:26-27

主对母亲说：[母亲，看你的儿子]，又对约翰说：[看你的母亲]。
约19:26-27

THE FOURTH WORD
"My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?"
Matthew 27:46 and Mark 15:34

[我的上帝，我的上帝，为什么离弃我？]
可15：34

THE FIFTH WORD
"I thirst"
Gospel of John 19:28

[我渴了]
约19:28

THE SIXTH WORD
When Jesus had received the wine, he said, "It is finished"; and he bowed his head and handed over the spirit.
Gospel of John 19:30

[成了] 主在十架上为我们完成了 [救恩]。
约19:30

THE SEVENTH WORD
Jesus cried out in a loud voice, "Father, into your hands I commend my spirit":
Gospel of Luke 23:46

主临终大声喊着说 [父啊，我将我的灵魂交在你手里]
路23:46

reference:
http://www.jesuschristsavior.net/Words.html

i love the 4th word..it just touches me..deepest..
“My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?”

Jesus spoke the language at that time saying.. (i forgot what language :C .)

“Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani?”
which means, “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?”

and on top of Jesus' cross..there were few letters.. INRI what were they?

What does INRI mean, the sign on top of Jesus' cross?
The Latin form of "Jesus of Nazareth, the King of the Jews" is "Iesus Nazarenus Rex Iudaeorum"
The first letters of this title provides us with INRI.

so actually..maybe.."Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani" was Latin too? ehh im really just guessing..hehh..
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went K-ing with mummy and Hui shortly after we reach home..suddenly mummy got de craving..so we went tgt..sang for 2 hours..it's NOT ENOUGH!! but ok la..just for fun..it's like my first time singing with mummy and Hui luhh..haha..not bad..quite cool :))

have lots of things to do..and im taking my real sweet time..im truely a snail..

ok im done here..as usual i cant post any picts up..idiot! alright it's really not w/in my control!

Javed's email - memories

2009-04-08T15:19:00.005+08:00

went to NDC..my dentist said it's still the same problem..im getting so sick of wearing braces..wana get them out asap..it has been 3 YEARS and a month plus!!!!! i got a feeling that it's gonna take longer than that..it's not even close to near taking out..maybe end of this year? so sian! anw i think even if i take it off..i wont be satisfied with the end result..dunno why my previous dentist have to leave..i mean i know why..but..hais..i should have just gone with her..she's better..but whatever it is..i'll just go with my current dentist now..not much of a choice now..just pray that she's smart enough to get me out of here!!!!

oh about Botanic..nth much..just enjoy and have fun..photos not accumulated yet..will upload all in a shot once i get them all..

received Javed's email..we knew each other during my 1st attachment in SGH renal ward..and he was my patient's son..she had 3 sons and he was one of them..they came from Bangladesh..i cant imagine..they are freaking rich! they brought their mother to Singapore for treatment! in SGH! in a B1 class ward!! and it wasn't a short stay..can u imagine de expenses they need to handle? they had been staying in hotel the whole time till they decided to return after the treatment..

they love me..they take me as their little sister..they are all very nice..i remember how we started to chat and became friends..cos it wasn't all so ordinary..i guess im a lucky girl to get close to them..LOL! anw their english were power..cos! de eldest son migrated to de states with his immediate family..guess it's for work..but not sure if his children were born there or what..anw they're rich..and one worked for a bank..let me think..citibank..he gave me his name card..a manager if i rmb correctly..and de youngest one set up his own business..i believe they're considered living in the high class society back in Bangladesh..they told me that if i ever have a change to go to their country..do let them know and i will not need to stay in a hotel..cos they will reserve me a better place..their house..they said their place was huge! and i can bring all my relatives and friends to stay in..wad the! im starting to imagine what kind of place they're staying? a palace? whoo~

i can see that 3 of them were really filial..always there staying beside their mother..all drop their work and bring her over..and be WITH her throughout her whole stay..and don't think they're just some laymen..they're very knowledgeable! about this insulin stuff..how they taught me about it..whether to adminster or not..in what kind of situation..to be honest..wen they're trying hard to make me understand..i really understand NOTHING!!! lol but i rmb he actually asked me to do a return demo..WAD THE!!! how u know im faking it?? LOL! anw they are VERY nice pple..they always offered me food..(erm actually most of my patients and their relatives offered me food..HAHA!) they always like me to drop by their room after im done with my stuff to have a chat with them..cos they're damn bored down there..hah!

they said..the next time when they're here for a real tour in Singapore..they will call me up and i shall be their tour guide..im not really confident of being their guide..but i will be most glad to meet them up and do my best to make them enjoy their stay :))

when she was discharged..i bought a big sunflower and made a card for her..she was smiling so brightly :)) and we still remember each other's promise..if i ever go over i shall find them (they gave me their namecards) and if they ever come over they will look for me too :) we exchanged emails..and true enough..we still keep in contact..not as frequent..but im so glad they still remember me..when they're so busy with their own work/business and family..and their sick mother..

a few weeks ago i received an email from them..telling me that their mother passed away a few months ago..peacefully and they are all by her side :(( and they said they still remember that they had a little sister back here in Singapore..i kind of miss them :((

alright i remembered this recent posting i had a chat with this patient of mine..then out of the blue..he said to me.."i need to tell ya something..if u're ever sick of being in this line..what u can go try tourism..u're really good!"

he said to be in there..u don't need whatever dip in tourism all this bullshit..u just need 2 things..
1) attitude (in the good way of cos)
2) face (acceptable looking face luhh!)

"u've got both! go for it!" yea thanks..but im happy here..i'll go for SIA instead if i wana drop nursing..

he manages his own company..he mentioned to me that he is working on his new proj..some 3D world? i don't really know how to explain..he asked me to check out his web..amazingworlds..something liddat..if im wrong..i got this feeling that this proposal is gonna work..i mean..it's good..he showed me too..from his phone..if it's me i would buy it..it's good..he will earn big bucks man..lol..

“就算全世界的人都看扁你，抛弃你，你也不能放弃自己。”

guess this was what he experienced before..

he told me about how he managed to get this far and stuff..and he sure had lots of lobangs..aiyah pple manage own business ma..he talks with confident..and he's really serious about pulling me into that tourism thingy..he really knows a lot huhh..anw it's ok..i dun wana think about all these complicating stuff again..about what i wana be..how should i go achieve them..it's so boring..i've got my aim here and im going for it..don't show me the other side of the grass..

oh btw my gpa is better after they revised the module papers again..rmb previously i said abt this going back to sch cos they wana let us know that they made an error..so they will let us know the new results again..but they assured us that it's either grades will be de same or even better..and for me..IT'S BETTER :DDD i've got a better grade..and my gpa too..so happy :)) thank God :))

good Friday..is on this Friday :)) or maybe u wana call it..Easter day..it is a day we remember how Christ died on the cross for us..yea as usual i'll cry again..this always happens every year..it's just so touching..to know someone who went through all these sufferings just for our sins..thinking about every details makes mi so emo again..but u'll rejoice after that..cos it's just so relieving that He has burdened all these for us..

alright don't blame me for such a wordy post..cos im really having a hard time posting up picts..it's really lagging..guess it's not a good time to upload..will try nxt time ;p

Jai Ho - Pussycat dolls (Slumdog Millionaire)

2009-04-08T15:06:00.002+08:00

love this song..somehow i felt that their story was really touching..they went through so much to get together..good thing they can finally be together..i love the ending :))

(Jai Ho)

(Jai Ho)I got (I got) shivers (shivers),

When you touch away,

I'll make you hot,

Get all you got,

I'll make you wanna say (Jai Ho)

(Jai Ho)

I got (I got) fever (fever),

Running like a fire,

For you I will go all the way,

I wanna take you higher

(Jai Ho)

I keep it steady Cuz steady is how I feel it.

This beat is heavy, so heavy, You gon feel it.
(Jai Ho)You are the reason that I breathe,

(Jai Ho) You are the reason that I still believe,

(Jai Ho) You are my destiny, Jai Ho! Uh-uh-uh-oh!

(Jai Ho)No there is nothing that can stop us

(Jai Ho) Nothing can ever come between us,

(Jai Ho) So come and dance with me, Jai Ho!

(oohh)

Catch me, catch me, catch me, come and catch me,

I want you now, I know you can save me,

come and save me, I need you now.

I am yours forever, yes, forever, I will follow,

Anywhere in anyway, Never gonna let go.

Jai Ho

(Jai Ho) Escape (escape) away (away),

I'll take you to a place, This fantasy of you and me,

I'll never lose the chase. (Jai Ho)

Yeaahhhh (Jai Ho) Yeaahhhh

I can (I can) feel you (feel you),

Rushing through my veins,

There's an notion in my heart,

I will never be the same.

(Jai Ho)Just keep it burnin',

yeah baby, Just keep it comin', (Jai Ho)

You're gonna find out, baby, I'm one in a million.

(Jai Ho)You are the reason that I breathe,

(Jai Ho) You are the reason that I still believe,

(Jai Ho) You are my destiny, Jai Oh! Uh-uh-uh-oh!

(Jai Ho)No there is nothing that can stop us

(Jai Ho) Nothing can ever come between us

(Jai Ho) So come and dance with me, Jai Ho! (oohh)

(You and me, it's destiny)

Catch me, catch me, catch me, come and catch me, I want you now,

I know you can save me, come and save me, I need you now.

I am yours forever, yes, forever, I will follow,

Anywhere in anyway, Never gonna let go.

Jai Ho (Yeeeaaahh), Jai Ho (Yeeeaaahh), Jai Ho

I need you, Gonna make it,

(Jai Ho) I'm ready, So take it!

(Jai Ho)You are the reason that I breathe,

(Jai Ho) You are the reason that I still believe,

(Jai Ho) You are my destiny, Jai Oh! Uh-uh-uh-oh!

(Jai Ho)No there is nothing that can stop us,

(Jai Ho) Nothing can ever come between us,

(Jai Ho) So come and dance with me, Jai Ho! (oohh)

(You and me, it's destiny)

Jai Ho!
Baila baila! Baila baila!
Jai Ho!
Baila baila!
Jai Ho!

cherish

2009-04-05T00:14:00.007+08:00

saw this in Pei's blog..think it's quite nice..

The girl in the picture is Katie Kirkpatrick, she is 21. Next to her, her fiancé, Nick, 23. The picture was taken shortly before their wedding ceremony, held on January 11, 2005 in the US. Katie has terminal cancer and spend hours a day receiving medication. In the picture, Nick is waiting for her on one of the many sessions of quimo to end.

In spite of all the pain, organ failures, and morphine shots, Katie is going along with her wedding and took care of every detail. The dress had to be adjusted a few times due to her constant weight loss.

An unusual accessory at the party was the oxygen tube that ketie used throughout the ceremony and reception as well. The other couple in the picture are Nick's parents. Excited to see her son marrying his high school sweetheart.

Katie, in her wheelchair with the oxygen tube, listening a song from her husband and friends.

At the reception, katie had to take a few rests.The pain do not let her to be standing up for long periods.

Katie died five days after her wedding day. Watching a women so ill and weak getting married and with a smile on her face makes us think..... Happiness is reachable, no matter how long it last. We should stop making our lives complicated.

Life is short

Break the rules

forgive quickly

kiss passionately, love truly

laugh constantly

And never stop smiling

no matter how strange life is

Life is not always the party we expected to be

but as long as we are here, we should smile and be grateful.

ended ALL year two attachment :]

2009-04-05T00:05:00.004+08:00

finally :]

so tired...but i sure had a fruitful one :))

few things to update but it's late..so probably tml or something..

1) today's YF @ Botanic

2) Javed's email

the three ways

2009-03-28T21:46:00.003+08:00

got this from Hui's blog..

Three Things You Want To Do Before You Die:
1) spend my last times with my most treasured friends, family, and my lover (if i had one),
2) reading God's word more, meditating by His word,
3) flipping through all the photos taken in my whole life time..

Three Names You Go By:
1) Shanning
2) Miss Yang
3) Ah-mei

Three Screen Names You Have Had:
1) s.ning
2) shanning
3) shiroi

Three Physical Things You Like About Yourself:
1) my eyes
2) small waist
3) FAIR skin complexion

Three Parts Of Your Heritage:
1) God's blessing-His chosen people
2) a Chinese?
3) Teochew

Three Things That Scares You:
1) creppy crawling ugly insects/creatures
2) mummy's sudden black face
3) alone in total DARKNESS

Three Of Your Everyday Essentials:
1) consumables
2) mummy's presence
3) hairtie/hairclip/hairband

Three Of Your Favorite Bands/Musical Artists:
1) Avril Lavinge
2) Britney Spears
3) -

Three Of Your Favorite Songs:
1) that thing you do-the wonders
2) love story-taylor swift
3) lucky-britney spears

Three Things You Want In A Relationship:
1) LOVE of cos
2) trust
3) honesty

Three Physical Things About The Preferred Sex That Appeal To You:
1) gorgeous looking
2) not VERYVERY hot but a hot body will do :>
3) a good height, preferbly above 175

Three Of Your Favorite Hobbies:
1) SHOPPING!!
2) hanging out with my good friends
3) eating good FOOD :D

Three Things You Want To Do Really Badly Right Now:
1) hanging out with him..a movie, a drink, a meal, or just plain strolling..just the 2 of us :(
2) having a beuaty sleep..seeing him in my dream ;)
3) OUT to somewhere i can feel the cold breeze

Three Careers You're Considering/You've Considered:
1) SIA stewardess
2) staff nurse
3) primary school teacher

Three Places You Want To Go On Vacation:
1) Paris
2) Tokyo
3) Egypt

Three Kid's Names You Like:
1) (too far to think of!)
2) -
3) -

Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically A Girl:
1) my FACE of cos!!
2) gentle and shy only @ first sight
3) the way i present myself??!?

Earth Hour

2009-03-28T20:59:00.003+08:00

today 28 March 2009 @ 8.30PM Saturday

now we're in darkness..haha! lighted some candles..so romantic :>

did u participate and do ur part for the Earth?

off your household lights for an hour..just ONE will do :) let's make a difference!

these few days i've been thinking abt one thing..

Jesus's 2nd coming..

what will i see?

and what's after that...

i don't really know how to feel honestly..

elated? joyful? afraid? worried?

i know the standard answer to how i should feel but...

am i ready for it?

how should i face Him?

my 2nd week during this attachment..it's not bad :)

thank God..the NP students are fun..childish should be the word for some..

but i enjoyed their presence :>

working with them made long hours pass faster :)

this week have been busy as compare to the previous week..

partly due to the MBBS examination..

very very busy..the first few days of the week were really momentless to slack..

LOL my own language huhh..

but i rather get busy and finish everything with satisfaction than idling aimlessly and waiting for time to knock off..

tml is Sunday..Lord's day and Monday is nearing..back to work again..

Rozi introduced me to pet society in facebook..haha! i joined and it was kinda fun..

but i've got a feeling i wont be playing it for long..not much variety..

overall i felt that it is a game that will interest you initially when first join..

but as time passes..u'll get bored of it..

but i'll try my best to hang in there till i've complete a proper home for my pet, Miffy :>

went back to school..it was announced to us that one of our modules taken, the result has an error in it..

they will revise everything again and someday next week they will let us know the finalize result..

but they assured us that it's either u maintain your current grade or u get BETTER grade..

i hope i get better grade of cos :) and then i see my GPA getting better :))

3 more days to kor's birthday..his 21 birthday..time is really catching up..can hardly believe it..

haven really thought of how to celebrate his birthday..cos i've no money for all these now..kinda sian man!!

alright that's all for today :) cya again!

good night..

quarrel wid mum

2009-03-23T23:38:00.003+08:00

hi dears..had a quarrel with mummy last night..was damn pissed off..cos she's damn naggy..saying all de things i dun wana hear..i rubuked..and de more she nags..

i cried myslf to slp later on..no one noes..only God..

i felt so stressed to even hear her footsteps last night..

dint tok to her since then..we were both cold..

i noe im very bad..wad a naughty daughter..but now i've cooled down..thinking tad i really shld change..i was thinking of a better way to handle my temper last night..try smiling like a stupid fool when she is damn pissed scolding all around ur head..maybe it can help not let de situation get so tensed up..de thing is..i'll look like an idiot..yes true..

today was so touched..she actually left maccaroni for me to eat when i got home..cos i told her before that everytime i work afternoon shift..de break times were early like 5 plus??!? and i will get hungry again abt de time when i get home..so told her to leave some food for mi if possible..and she did..even aft we quarreled..and mi being so mean to her last night..and we haven get back..felt so sorry..

alrite anw..tml is de MBBS exam..de medical students exam..it's gonna be a VERYVERYVERYVERY BUSY DAY!!!!!!!!!!!! de whole entire day! be it u're in morning or afternoon shift..tml time will pass damn fast!!! :>

alrite tads all for today..ciao~ good nite..

extra infos

2009-03-22T22:16:00.002+08:00

sry i forgot to add..angela's grandpa passed away last night..heard is last stage cancer..but what cancer im not sure..tml choir is going over at night to sing for de wake..i really wana go..i really do..but i cant..im on afternoon shift :(( really sorry..do send my condolences..i rmb that ah-gong when i view that photo on angela's blog..that ah-gong i saw before..just last year..i even went to his house..he was..yes cute..hais..this is just part of God's plan..we will see each other one day :)) it must be hard on de rest..angela, jielin, jiexin, ruth, etc..

tml is monday again..another 5 days to challenge myslf with :> im ready to go..wait..not yet..i haven iron my uniforms!!!! alrite gtg now!

updates

2009-03-22T18:42:00.007+08:00

hi people..how's ya week?

i've started on my posting..my first week was...hmm not bad..haha!

had a great time with my new NP friends..they were attached there for 3 weeks too..but it's their last week when we came in..but following week, tml onwards..there will be another batch of NP students coming in for their posting..yepp all are year 1s :>

my SNs &ENs were not bad and some were really good :)) hope i can really learn more and get along well with the other nurses..be it students or not :> and also not forgetting my CIs..LOL!

friday gotta present case study..man really dunno wads de point of it..it's so waste of time..it's just copying and copying..nth really goes in..i prefer our previous posting where my CI just come into the room u're I/C of and ask u all abt ur patient..tads was heiong lor! u haf to noe everything abt ur patients under ur fingertips..each took 8-9 patients depending on de room u're in..but good thing she allow us to refer to our notes..if not really can die..

seems like de medical students are going to haf their exam on tue if im not rong..so tml n tue there will be some changes for us on where will we be shifted to..cos they are holding their exam in the rooms we are appointed to..some MBBS thingy..if im not rong tads de name of de exam..hah! yeah we were all quite looking forward to see some handsome dudes in de following weeks of our posting..cos apprently there were NONE!!! not nurses, not patients..not even patient's relatives/friends..LOL! we're not despos..just that..u noe time and then u need to pamper ur eyes a little by looking at good stuff :P that's how i maintain my perfect eyesight :> NO LAHH! i was really joking on tad eyesight thing ok! haha! im a good girl :>

alrite de previous time was toking abt de NP girl..i dint make myslf to report..i just cant do it la..anw even if she can pass this stage doesn't mean she can pass de nxt one..im sure she will be penalized one day..guess wad? i saw her doing another procedure de nxt few days..she was doing a gastric lavage..meaning washing out wadeva is in de patient's gastric..i really cant stand her doing all these procedures..her gloves were in a mess..full of gastric content..dunno how de hell she mess things up so horribly..and wads nxt? she went to touch the suction apparatus and de tubings..the meter and EVERYTHING with her FULL OF PATIENT'S GASTRIC CONTENT gloves..FYI the contents looks like lau-sai..can u imagine????? she was soooooo ewwwwwwwwww~!!!!!! CMI..REALLY CMI..i cant make myslf cont standing there..so i make my way out..tarhan!!!

other then that..nth much la..i like most of the NP students..haha! oh yar..i was told that one of dem look down on ex-ENs..siao! in NYP ex-ENs were like precious gem ok! in terms of experience and everything else..it's a privilege to learn from them ESP when u're a year ONE!!! aint that obvious? man dunno why these days kids easily look down on pple..they probably dun use much of their brain cells to think..if u even realize..pple from ITE or say..NA from sec sch..most are more humble and hardworking than express classes..too yaya papaya dun lead u to a good and easy life..learn it!

hmmm there was one day, i forgot when exactly..i was late for 6-7 mins..but i did pay back luhh..ya noe..if u're late for 10..u gotta repay 30..if late for 30 gotta repay 1 hr..if more then 1 hr..repay 8 hrs which is actually one whole shift..haha! heng ahh..intended to wake at 10am and leave at 12pm..but overslept till 11.35am..im like wad de??!!!??!!?!?!? it's like less then 30 min in hand luhh! and i usually took 1.5-2 hrs to prepare!!!! (from de moment i wake up to brush teeth, attire, make up, and makan) gosh..i chiong like MADDD!!! i went out aft 30-35 min la..and was late for that few mins..phew!!! cos de journey in de afternoon is abt an hour..and when u reach de stop u have to walk all de way in to reach de hosp..PLUS my block is FAR!!! have to walk all my way in to de block! PLUS it's lvl 7!!! almost every lvl de door will open..i think i run up de stairs still faster than de lift lor!! it was really good thing i dint reach any later..lol! :D

i realized one thing abt china pple..alrite to declare one thing! no offence to china kias out there..but that's really de fact i've observed so far for years..MOST alrite..most china GIRLS have poor etiquette..really..alrite de thing was there was one day i did afternoon shift and was on de bus heading to work..i sat at de window seat..i was doing some reading..later came a woman sat beside me..a short while later..i smell something REALLY BADDD!!!!!!! wasn't durians..even durians were better..serious..wasnt farting smell..but it's around there..her BAD BREATHHHHH!!!!!! super horrid!! i looked at her..cos obviously she's de prime suspect..i saw her opening her mouth..not yawning..just opened slightly..dunno FOR WHAT!!!! close it since it stinks to de core can PLEASE!??!! i just tried to fan a little using my little book, looked to the other side hopefuly she can get it..but apparently it doesn't work..nvm..i tarhan..(i really stinks!!!) then i smell it again..de same STINKO BREATH!! i looked at her again..she knew it lor! then i frowned n fanned harder!! i even purposely let her see me turning that air-con thingy blowing at my direction..and as usual it dint work..de smell keep coming back and then..

she even did one super disgusting action..SCRATCHING HER ARMPIT!!!!!!!!!!!! (why i my life so unpleasant? always get to witness this kinda disgusting stuff???!!!?!) i cant imagine if she dint shave her pits..then maybe outside is warm and she sweat..sit beside me and tot everyone is blind and scratched her itchy pit!!!! wad de HECK IS THIS??? as usual i stared at her..she acted gong..WADEVER! i was still thinking wads de nxt thing she do..smell her fingers that was filled with that 'aroma' of hers..YIKES!! heng ar dun haf!! if not i faint..

eh dun say dun haf ok! i saw this waiter when im eating in a rstaurant..dug his nose..left then right then left again n right again..nvm..use another finger dig earwax..dig left dig right..no gold..how? smell it hopefully when he trys to dig his nose he can get some..and de whole thing just repeat..n wads de best?? digging both ears at de same time and smell it both!!! de manager walked past mi n i showed him wad kinda disgusting waiter he hired..WA PIANG!!

ok sry back to topic..she was scratching her pit rite? nvm..later..one TURBO HIT!! she did de most horrendous thing!!! she YAWNED!!!!!! can u imagine??? she actaully yawned when she can already kill de whole bus just by opening her stinky mouth!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i almost died at that instant! my very 1st reaction (not me..it was human normal reaction) >> FROWN! FAN LIKE SIAO! COVER NOSE! STARE AT THAT ASSHOLE! whaa really wana kick her out of de bus lor! i really buay tarhan when she can actually yawn at least once in 2 mins!!!! im really struggling in my seat..was still thinking if i cont. to stay here..by de time i reach my stop i will smell of de 'perfume' named: "no.1 stinko phoenix breath - made in CHINA!"

i cant make myslf to torture myslf..i started to hunt for empty seats far away from her..i found it..3 seat away upfront..i made my way there..i think it's damn bloody obvious that im pissed off with her phoenix breath..was so glad i was 3 seats away..BUT!!!! maybe i shldn't be tad happy yet..cos..............................................................................i bloody smell de same FREAKING GARBAGE BREATH 3 'MILES' AWAY!!!!!!!! piang ehh!! dun she freaking noe how to cover her gabage mouth??? like 1000 years nvr drink water and brush teeth le lor!!!!! i really felt like alighting de bus just for de sake of getting fresher air..BUAY TARHAN!!! but i will definitely run late if i do so..so i just hope and pray she get down de bus asap..but it doesnt seems like it..my stop was apparetly de last stop..LOL! she got off so late later lor! i kept smelling it at least once in a few mins..since she keep yawning..but im glad enuff it's not tad strong as when i was JUST NEXT TO HER!!! piang! cant stand it lor!!! feels like slapping her garbage mouth and teach her some etiquette..

de thing was..it wasnt de first time i saw this kinda awful behaviour..almost all china pple yawn w/o covering their mouths..lets not even include having bad breaths..tad woman hor..dunno wads de word to describe..makes my blood boil..puke lor! wonder if she's eva out wid her bf..sure 100% turn off n say to her..'this will be de last time we're seeing each other..i going home STAT (immediately)!!!' lol!! please lar girls (esp from CHINA)..cover ur mouths can? and super ESPECIALLY if u haf bad breath..brush ur teeth well and use antiseptic mouthwash can??? drink more water please!!!! buay tarhan!!! really not trying to shoot u guys from china..but it's really awful lar..for u own sake and for de community's sake can??? thank you..HAIS!!!

btw my results were out! i............................................dint fail! ahah! im so surprised!! thank God man! this sem had really damn low confident of my own performance..i really tot i'd haf to retake some modules..but?! i passed ALL!! and grades were better than last sem!! improvements on GPA too :> haha!! so happy..though it's still considered low ok..but im contented that there are improvements..cos i dint expected it..how can u do well when u haf no study break at all? no time to prepare and all..i can pass is already a miracle..once again thank God..that i dun had to bother myslf to study again and go way back to sch to retake paper :)) YEAH!! sry for those who dint make it for some modules..just..do well on ur supp paper k! :)

had a chat with Angela some days ago..updating abt her life..she was also my junior in sch ok! haha! my year 1 junior..coming yr 2 la..guess she's coping well in her posting..haven ask her abt her results..nxt time ba..rarely see her online..and also now im kinda busy too..cos of posting..she's also having her posting now in NUH..yepp hope she will do well for her posting..tad nite was late dint get a chance to ask her abt attending church stuff..she said will tell mi when we chat nxt time..till then..i hope i can get her back in serving church..

had a short chat wid AikBin just now too..haha her knee is getting better..good thing! hopefully everything goes well..and like wad she said..we can come out tgt aft my posting wid Carinna :))

oh yar and tad day when i met up wid WS to pass him his tie at ice-kimo..we went for some dessert there..and de waiter who served us was............................GuoYang if it's spelt this way..hah! surprised..he did some trimming of eyebrow..kinda freaked mi out..and he did a whole lot of tatto-ing..erm actually all i can see is only his 2 arms..so tatoo all de way till his wrist la..dunno where it starts though..it actually took mi some time to recall his name..he was famous back in sec sch lor! for?? ah-beng la of cos!!! and of cos we're not friends..but we just noe each other's existence..hah!

btw sch is staring on 20 April..meaning..i have one more week of break added!! so after my posting..i will have 2 wks of break before sch starts! :)) yr 3 life sure is tough..and i can foresee that it will be like boarding onto a bullet train..nvm i will persist and persevere on :>

my 2 weeks break aft posting was planning on meeting up with:

1) my dears which includes my beiying, ping, peiying & gang..hopefully can find a day when we all are free..
2) and also my new NP frens..they are kinda fun..haha! just ask de whole bunch out..hopefully they can make it too >> sandar, thazin, shirley, eileen, brendon and victor..
3) also one more date with wjing..with Zahirah & Regina..i asked her..with Zahirah or Regina & co.? she says..aiyah just de 2 of dem n no one else la..cos de others nvr initiate anything..only Regina..so just we 4..belated bdae girl's request..too bad!

*if u guys see this..pls haf some reaction..let me noe if u can make it..

4) and not forgetting abt de date with AikBin n Carinna..provided AikBin leg has recovered well enuff to come out to haf fun..HAHA!!

alrite wad a long post..hope it feeds you for the entire week :)) haha see when im free to update luhh :)) and for those who always come and 'stalk' on mi ar..HAHA!! refering to those who only read and nvr tag de..think i dunno who u are huhh..lol! dun let mi list ur name..just tag can? if not it feels so pervertic..like stalking on my life sia! lol!!! k la my eyes getting tired..cya then..have a great week ahead :))

forward-ed email

2009-03-22T18:35:00.003+08:00

forward-ed email msg:

> Why Women Cry?

> > A little boy asked his mother, "Why are you crying?" "Because I'm a

> woman," she told him..

> > "I don't understand," he said. His Mom just hugged him and said, "And you

> never will."

> > Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does mother seem to cry for

> no reason?"

> > "All women cry for no reason," was all his dad could say.

> > The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry.

> > Finally he put in a call to God. When God got on the phone, he asked,

> "God, why do women cry so easily?"

> > God said:

> > "When I made the woman she had to be special.

> > I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world,

> > yet gentle enough to give comfort.

> > I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that

> many times comes from her children.

> > I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else

> gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue

> without complaining.

> > I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all

> circumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly.

> > I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and

> fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart.

> > I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but

> sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him

> unfalteringly.

> > And finally, I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers exclusively to use

> whenever it is needed."

> > "You see my son," said God, "the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes

> she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair.

> > The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the

> doorway to her heart - the place where love resides."

WheeSung-Insomnia (Korean version of Craig David's)

2009-03-18T22:59:00.001+08:00

1st day in SGH Wd 57-Surgical

2009-03-16T21:34:00.006+08:00

today was my first day of work at Wd 57..everything was quite alrite..CIs look nice n approachable..haha! hope they are really nice when it comes to accessing skills :))

got a grp of NP students..attached here for 3 weeks same as us..but this is their last week..& it's our first..LOL! they're only year 1..yar going yr 2..but caught one NP girl doing her wound dressing on a patient..her aseptic techniques REALLY CMI..A LOT of mistakes..if im de ptt i'll die in her hands..my wound may never recover well..GOSH!

WJ & Seri oso spotted some of her mistakes..can u imagine how badly has she done? wad de heck! n was wondering why no staff or CI access her skills just now..then thinking it was probably cos it's their last wk..n shld haf been accessed b4 so shld be safe for them to do simple dressing on their own w/o supervision..BUT! not for her please! i dun even noe how she get to pass her accessment..in sch or even here..n who is de person who pass her..if im de staff or CI..she sure DIE!!! im sure to scream at her..she's really BAD! forget it..heng not same room..if not i sure high BP every shift..this kinda act is intolerable..must report..cannot let her go out n 'kill' pple..must reaccess her..badbadbad......

plus her attitude towards feedbacks are not good enuff..dint scold her or wad..just pointed to her that she shld stop forcing on de wound as her so called dried blood clots are actually BLOOD OOZING out from de wound..but she actually insisted on till de others cfm to her my claims..her face nvr turned black..but can see tad she is unhappy with us..tsktsk..if u're wrong..n VERYVERY wrong..must listen, acknowledge..and most imptly, amend ur mistakes..n improve on! JUNIORS! PLEASE BE HUMBLE!! that's de only way to survive..dun learn it through de hard way..KID HUHH..hais~

as in not tad we wana yaya-papaya tad we're from NYP (more skilled) or final year soon very pro or wad..we will all grad to become SN ma..our common goal is for de benefit of patients..why wana make life diff? we learn & grow tgt..shld work hand-in-hand..

man! tml is morning shift..wana go slp already..meeting WS for ice-cream at ice kimo aft my dinner..of cos as usual HIS treat..LOL! too bad im broke :))

attachment again real soon :\ (Yr 2/Sem 2/Part 2)

2009-03-15T15:24:00.009+08:00

ahh..heard abt bigJo dedicating one fat compo abt KW in his blog..how sweet..LOL! yea i kinda agree wid him luhh..thinking back..i haven really seen KW in a bad mood?!?! yarr..he's always smiling..hmmm..has a good temper huhh..

yepp so knowing abt that..i went to kpo kpo..n i found it! :] being Josiah..nth really good will come out from his mouth..we were saying tad bigJo is a guy version of Janetta..n added..he is the small version of Shi Ping..LOL! but dun think Shi Ping is in that cat. any more..she's mature n make sense..kids nowadays dun really make much sense..hah!

was kinda surprised that bigJo will speak good of others..HAH! well guess maybe KW made a diff in some part of his life..good luhh..he's looking up to someone nice enuff..alrite so here it is :]

"Well, as some of my fellow church members know,
Kokwai would be on some trip to the US for 3 months :l. Now that, is long. Very, long.

Well, incase he doesn't make it back, be it Judgement day arrives earlier than expected or something terrible happens, this post shall be dedicated to him. Ain't that sweet? :D
Yea, well, I had some nice, and none of the not-so-nice memories of him. Lets list down some, just to say.

Well, it was a typical Saturday, again. Was preparing to go to YF, and I recieved this sms,
"eh bigjo, coming to yf?"

Being me, I really don't know who the heck was it. So I replied,
"yup".

Then we just chatted, where was I, whatever.

Then it struck me.

Why was I giving out personal information to a complete stranger I don't even know?
So just being cautious, I asked "Who are you, arh?"

"kokwai :)"
"oh. "

Then the conversation ended as I approached church.
That, was one of the memories that I finally knew who the heck was kokwai, and then eventually, we became friends. Haha. I don't think I actually talked to him before.

Here's another one, but it is just a fond one, though.

It was the last childrens camp, until last year, lah.
He was the sort of, person that took care of one section, and it so happened that he took care of my section,
at night.

So I just remembering him shouting "Go to sleep", and shining the torch at me. HHAHAH, funny, but one that would just stay in your mind forever.

Well, there are a few, not so pleasant ones. Like the camp incident. I shall decide not to explain and elaborate on that one. I just know that he was so damn stressed. I thought I saw him emoing? D: I think I tried to cheer him up, lah. If I could make a video of this, it would be damn emo. I think at least 60% of you guys would cry reading that. Even though it would be just text.

Kokwai , IMO, is a very nice person. And when I tried to launch a rebel attack against him, I failed. He just can't be rebelled against. Fine. I didn't rebel. I more of tried to ignore. Alot of the YF-ers were easy. Just think that they were not there, done. I was smsing Junie, saying that Kokwai was impossible to ignore.

He is just always so darn happy and cheerful.

I can't help it. I've never written such a wordy post about someone. Let alone a male. Not that I'm gay. Its just because he is leaving this wednesday, and I guess I hardly ever saw him for the past 2 weeks. Quite sad, ain't it?

Well, kokwai, if you ever happen to chance on this, just remember, you are the most cheerful person I've ever met in my life. Remember that.

God bless,
Josiah. "

end of it..nice huhh..bigJo ok! lol!

so for today..Joy, mummy n Hui..HAH! she's so CUTE rite? feel like taking her home n play..LOL!

alrite so here's for ytd..at YF..haha! me n Carinna cam-whoring in de toilet..edited de photo :] haha i posted it in FB n tagged her..she liked it LOL!

initially was a workshop..but numbers were not enuff..so we postponed it to de nxt..

we've done some sharing instead..and we were discussing abt why many of our church youths dun wana come n join in de fellowship or even left church..mm n those who came n left too..also those who came n STAYED..haha! that's Merrill :] there are really quite a lot if u really wana count them all..one by one..hais..guess it's de same problem every year..pple cant feel de warmth..left out..cant fit in..therefore leaving is de choice they chose..we talked abt it..discussed n shared abt de problems..but we dint actually came up wid solutions..LOL! weird huh..

sometimes i wished i were a boy in YF..cos de guys are so bonded n so fun to be with..n a girl like mi cant really hang out too much wid de guys..and due to de big number of girls..we tend to split up into many diff cliques..cos guys de numbers are quite small..so it's easier..n they are of abt de same era..haha! so dey can clique well..of cos luhh..there are pple like Adrian & KW..no problem luhh..when im younger i hang out with them too..cos Adrian n KW is one yr older than mi only..n they are friends wid kor..so we just play tgt..not very frequent..but if it comes to church friends..i can only think of them..that was very young luhh..like upper pri to lower sec..then changed cliques..my clique kept changing..till recent years it's quite stable..haha! only Adrian n KW stayed..maybe cos Adrian is really friendly n nice to talk to..n KW being de only one who takes de same bus home wid me..like my bodyguard on bus..HAH!

ahh..know what? few days ago i had a very very sweet dream..i dreamt of............ehh i cant tell u..hah! it's someone luhh..i told Hui n she actually told me that she dreamt of her someone too..lol maybe it's de same night LOL! it's so great lor..as in thank God luh..cos dun really have much chances of seeing each other..so even in dreams..im contented enuff..really..don't know if im wastng my time on this partiular..but hopefully..the dream that i wish will come true..

Cinderella:

A dream is a wish your heart makes

When you're fast asleep

In dreams you lose your heartaches

Whatever you wish for, you keep

Have faith in your dreams and someday

Your rainbow will come smiling thru

No matter how your heart is grieving

If you keep on believing

the dream that you wish will come true

tml is MODAY!!! not just a Monday ok! cos attachment starts again for me :(( will be posted to SGH surgical ward..another 3 weeks..hope i can learn as much..and enjoy my posting :))

alrite im gonna end here..will update when i have time :)) take care!

cant bear for u to leave

2009-03-11T17:01:00.007+08:00

eating barley mummy cooked..

so bored..

no DS to play..

dun feel like finishing X-stitch..

no mood to play piano..

no interesting programme to watch..

tiring my eyes here..

KW is leaving..

cant send him off tonight :(( damn it

cant get to eat Popeye..

i sounded so damn emo..cant help it..

yeah have been psycho-ing Hui with this korea pop..haha!! too bad!! :>

TanShaoMay VS ChickenLittle :))

feeling kinda empty now..

maybe i shld go run later..

ram all my worries n troubles away..

hais but i feel kinda lazy..

maybe i shld just stay home n emo myslf..

if i have my own room..and if it rains later it's even better..

gosh i sound damn scary..like some depressed patient..hah!

ahh..maybe later i can try to disturb Hui..she ignored me just now..dumbo tsm!!

maybe it's time for mi to get out for a good hunt..

a bf is good..give me a GOOD & NICE one thank you :))

Hui reco mi this photoscape thingy..have been trying it out..maybe i can do new prints with these photoscape thing :))

*i have not tried my best..

korean MV - call me (Tae Goon)

2009-03-10T22:30:00.004+08:00

haha! Bei Ying is so cute..damn funny..she said she check my blog often..see what im doing..i thought she come in once in a while..cos she oso nvr tag mi de..then she said dun nidda tag one..she SPY on me..DOTS! haha..yar i oso asked her y she nvr join FB cos i cant find her..she oso another one..haha! like me..want, dun want..in de end i managed to convince her..not really convince la..i forced her to join..haha! SUCCESSFUL!! haha! now she asked for 5 min to allow her to join in de league :)) GUAI O BEIYING!

mummy even better..she thought i haven bathe!!!!! WHAT DE!!!!! im not so dirty can mummy? she thought i haven bathe cos de shirt like same..hello i batheD and changED my clothings le!! wha thanks!! pls dun be mistaken..im very clean..is my mummy blur..haha! she's so cute..

ok saw this mv on scv just now..so upload it here..ignore de rapping part..haha de song is at de back..dun like de chorus 'call me call me' part sia..kinda errxin..but de dance not bad la..but i prefer the other one..BUT i dunno de artist name n de song title!!!!!!!!!! SO SADDDD...........so now everyday i will sit n wait for de programme hoping de same mv will show again..de chances are slim i noe..but isnt that de only thing u can do when u are so clueless :))

can hear my playlist too..it's de mv song :))

Call me - Tae Goon

play..and pause it..let it buff :)) then listen to de playlist music..aft that im sure de mv wld haf finish de buffering :))

not worth it movie..

2009-03-09T21:29:00.011+08:00

:)) hello people!! CUTE RITE???? de kitten of cos! :D

oh n HI TO HUI! shall update now..hah!

really nth much to update luhh..nth quite special..

just stay home n rot..even my DS..ermm i meant BRO'S DS..haha not mine..DS is wid Carinna cos Sat i asked her to keep for mi n i forgot to take it back from her..but she's come over to return mi tml..yepp finally..i haven finish my game luh..ahh im still at Phonix Wright but im already at 'Trails n Tribulation' :)) soon will go to 'Ace Attorney'!!!!

heard from Carinna that Adrian is sick..all of a sudden..hmmm hope it's just minor stuff n go off soon..

got this Snapfish thingy from bro..gave mi free prints..i have uploaded de picts i wanted..warhaha~ im gonna receive them soon :)) it's quite cool luhh..they do those cups, calendars, photo books etc..they even do blankets haha!! there are a lots of varieties to choose from..can do for ur loved ones..but sadly for mi i've got no one to do for..haha! not anyone i can think of..

as i mentioned KW is leaving for US for work n travel..cool rite?! i've written my part on his card..de card YF bought for him luhh..it's cute yea? :)) he will like it..haha! Wed sending him off..

today went out with mummy n Hui..kor asocial luhh..haha! jk..but dunno him luhh..like to outcast himself..lol! saw JiaMing..my sec sch GB senior..she dint see mi and of cos i dint call her..nahh we're not that close..actually saw her a few times previously in SGH while on attachements too..saw Samantha also..sec sch mate luhh..she dint see mi too..i guess so..haha!

went for manicure..mum's doing it..walked ard FarEast..so sian when u can only see n cant buy..though mum is there..but she's not really a good 'live-ATM'..a bf is better :)) but we bought some suff too..some shirts..n socks..HAHA! i got myself 2! one or fun..another for my new heels..had fried mars bar..so nice..i like! :)) ate some sashimi & sushi..also dranks some stuff while waiting for our movie to start..what movie?

a very very very UNinteresting movie Hui recommended..what a good show..*applause*..she said this show must have something to do with dogs (since it's slumDOG)..and heard that it's a comedy! how confident..ok lor..bought de ticks n went in..MANN!! k luhh..some parts are lame..some parts are cruel..some parts im lost..some parts are sad some are touching..ohh the movie name is 'slumdog millionaire'..cant find de best word to describe the show..just...........cant say it's not nice..cant really say it's worth watching too..wadeva luhh..

but dun playplay ahh..this movie won award ok! haha!

btw i oso found new things to buy while doing window-shopping just now :)) yea wait for money to come in fers..haha!

got this forward email from Regina..went BLIND after drinking too much water!!! but dun get mistaken..read the whole article! *click on the article*

alrite gotta massage for bro already..cya! :))

~what does it take to find a lost love?

*Destiny

2009-03-05T18:25:00.005+08:00

hihiii!

now ASAT is over at my place playing PS3 wid bro..hahah!! yahh they just got back aft their 'date' in town! oOps!

ASAT is a damn funny guy luhh..haha he's so cute..from young he n bro are good friends..best of bests lol! look at their sizes..now u see..opposite attracts :))

mummy n ASAT's mummy are very good friends too! and mummy likes ASAT n his mother likes bro too..andandand the most impt thing is his mother likes us..me n Hui..cos she have 3 sons n i guess she wants a girl very much..haha! i would say she prefer Hui..haha more bah nice to play..Hui in de past is auntie-killer de.. can nvr beat her..haha!! but she claims that she doesn't like to attract aunties..cos her cheeks will suffer..lol!

lol our childhood very cue one luhh..childhood memories in church :)) a happy little child has no worries at all..just eat sleep n play..happy living in his own world..so nice being a little kid :))

haha Adrian is really laughing hard outside playing Little Big Planet wid bro..LOL!!i wana go kpo already :D

take care folks! ah btw, KW is leaving soon..for i guess 3 mths? i forgot again..hah! cya!

Desset personality test

2009-03-05T18:04:00.007+08:00

Welcome you to take the Dessert Personality Test!!

IF all of the eight desserts listed below were sitting in front of you, which ONE would you choose? (sorry, you can only pick one!)

Heard that this is very accurate.

Anw just pick your dessert, then look to see what the psychiatrists think about you.

REMEMBER -No Cheating. Make your choice before you check the meaning..

Here are your choices:
1. Angel Food Cake
2. Brownies
3. Lemon Meringue Pie
4. Vanilla Cake With Chocolate Icing
5. Strawberry Short Cake
6. Chocolate Cake With Chocolate Icing
7. Ice Cream
8. Carrot Cake

No, you can't change your mind once you scroll down, so think carefully about what your choice will be.

OK - Now that you've made your choice, this is what the researchers say about you...

SCROLL DOWN

1. ANGELFOOD CAKE -- Sweet, loving, cuddly. You love all warm and fuzzy items. A little nutty at times. Sometimes you need an ice cream cone at the end of the day. Others perceive you as being childlike and immature at times.

2. BROWNIES-- You are adventurous, love new ideas, and are a champion of underdogs and a slayer of dragons. When tempers flare upyou whip out your saber. You are always the oddball with a unique sense of humor and direction. You tend to be very loyal.

3. LEMON MERINGUE -- Smooth, sexy, & articulate with your hands, you are an excellent caregiver and a good teacher. But don't try to walk and chew gum at the same time. A bit of a diva at times, you set your own style because you do your own thing. You shine when it comes to helping others and have many friends.

4. VANILLA CAKE WITH CHOCOLATE ICING -- Fun-loving, sassy, humorous, not very grounded in life; very indecisive and lacking motivation. Everyone enjoys being around you, but you are a practical joker.. Others should be cautious in making you mad. However, you are a friend for life.

5. STRAWBERRY SHORTCAKE -- Romantic, warm, loving. You care about other people, can be counted on in a pinch, and expect the same in return. Intuitively keen. You can be very emotional at times but a true person in every way. You like to do things for yourself and help others learn about themselves.

6. CHOCOLATE CAKE WITH CHOCOLATE ICING-- Sexy; always ready to give and receive. Very creative, adventurous, ambitious, and passionate. You can appear to have a cold exterior but are warm on the inside. Not afraid to take chances. Will not settle for anything average in life. Love to laugh.

7. ICE CREAM -- You like sports, whether it be baseball, football, basketball, or soccer. If you could, you would like to participate, but you enjoy watching sports. You don't like to give up the remote control. You tend to be self-centered and high maintenance.

8. CARROT CAKE -- You are a very fun loving person, who likes to laugh. You are fun to be with. People like to hang out with you. You are a very warm hearted person and a little quirky at times. You have many loyal friends. You were meant to lead and teach others. A wonderful role model.

WHAT'S YOURS??????

:)) i chose Lemon Meringue Pie

new hair style

2009-03-03T21:48:00.003+08:00

yo! haha! today i went for a hair cut..Carinna brought me to de salon she use to visit..hmmm it's ok la..but probably wont go there anymore..1stly not very convenient luhh..quite far..and i still prefer hairstylist as compared to hairdresser..

my hair now arr...................maybe just not used to it..Hui said she felt so heart broken for me cos i cut quite a lot..really? ok la..3 inches only..my fringe is like.......................mushroom..quite sad luhh..but i'll try something to make myslf not look so dumb..lol!

still cant accept my own hairstyle now..nvm aft poly grad abt one more year..grow longer then go curl my hair..got time luhh..haha! wait till then still got chance to beautify myslf..lol..

k this is Sat YF..fotos wid Pearly, JiaHui, Carinna..and ME!

this is Faith! cute rite? her twist is so cute! :D

alrite i wana put face mask already..good night! :))

out wd Pei n WS

2009-02-27T22:45:00.011+08:00

hello! another week is going to pass soon..and im still rotting..haha! alrite la..actually went out these few days..celebrate Jess's birthday..hmm went out wid PeiYing n WenShiun today..tml Sat le..so fast..it means minus one week of hols for me..left 2..i hope to use my hols time well..hais..alrite..fotos! ok start wid Chanel goods..as promised..sample products..skin care n make-ups..and my NEW foundation n blusher! my precious..haha!

ytd was Jess's birthday..mum's treat for lunch at DFS Soup Restaurant..love de food there..plus de ambience..whoo~ later went to McCafe for drinks n cakes..

just now met up wid PeiYing n WS..had lunch over at Cine..someone was fraking late..but nvm he got his punishment he deserved..treating us drinks..oOps! i dint gif him de money for my chicken chop..haha! aiyah he wont mind de..haha!!!

walkwalk..had mum's ring polished up..went to body shop find glitter eyeliner but..hais..went ard walking ard town..also went to visit Hui at her working place..Springfield@PS..WS bought a tie there..got staff discount 30% off..cos Hui helped him buy fers..haha!

we also saw YeeLeng, Deona n pple..we were still talking abt them over lunch..so coincident tad we bump into each other..lol!

went to Esprit..i had my eyes set on a white dress..it's S$99.90..i dint try it..1st: i waited very long for a vacant changing room..2nd: it's troublesome to take out my clothes n wear something else today..im wearing something complicated luhh..n it may mess up my make-up :> 3rd: even if i try n it fits..i still cant buy..that's de saddest thing..de truth is always cruel!! so i gave up queeing..but now im still thinking of de dress..it's so sweet :(( years back i went into Esprit too wid Carinna n i spotted on one white blouse..de price also damn ex luhh..so in de end nvr buy..and im still thinking of it..haha! but no point la cos im positively sure it's out of season..out of stock out of everything..sadded..maybe i will dream of wearing it some-night..haha!

got de urge to change my wardrobe clothings..throw some keep some buy sommore!!! money please..

haven been sleeping well these past nights..it's kinda rare for mi..99% of the time i sleep, i'll go deep down into my dreams..i'll be like a total dead log..justified by Hui too..haha! i dreamt of zoombies..slept, dreamt of zoombies, woke up, fell asleep, zoombies again, woke up, slept in again, zoombies again..never ending..maybe i played too much wid bro..Resident Evil 5..haha!

wana try my new face-masks i bought..but always lazy to put it on..like a pack of lazy bones..AHH! bones..gotta drink more milk..i think im super prone to getting osteoporosis at an early age..pple@risk: Asians, women, small in size, small bones, skinny, age, menopause, lifestyle e.g. smoking & alcohol consumption, consuming inadequate amt of Ca..med or disease, pple wid family hist. of osteo..tad's it..im done for it..

hmmm..think almost everyone in poly shld haf finished their exams..but Bei is having her exams soon..jia you! :D

gotta help bro massage his injured arm again..cya!

headache

2009-02-25T23:19:00.003+08:00

kinda having a headache today..go away!!!

had mummy's delicious peanut plus dried cuttlefish porridge for dinner! it's super ICHIBAN!! :D im so blessed to get to eat all de wonderful food mummy come up with!

heard from Hui..tml is Jessica's birthday! :D happy birthday to you girl! :> they will be going out to enjoy n celebrate with her..and also heard that mummy is treating them tgt for......lunch cum dinner? dunno..haha!

Friday meeting PeiYing n WenShiun for a late lunch..been long time since i met up wid Pei..haha! alrite shall catch up n update! :))

k my head feels heavy..take care guys! :>

CHANEL!!

2009-02-24T22:38:00.004+08:00

i like this..top of my eyeliner..putting on a hint of shimmering gold..sorry my fone cam sucks..HAH!

today went out to SHOP!!! asked bro to acc mi..cos it's like im de only one holiday-ing at this exam period..haha!

im so happy luhh..i've finally got my foundation powder pact n a new blusher both from CHANEL!! cos i've used up my powder n always wanted to buy de refill..but couldn't find time..if not it'll be cant find money..haha! so this time rnd..after everything..im FREE!! so i can finally shop for my goods!! :D sorry ar..forgot to take fotos of them..will take..maybe tml ba..share wid u guys..they're so pretty!! :)) oh n i've got some of their sample products..to let mi try out some of their products..cool..i've new stuff to try hahah!!

also, i've bought some face mask..so long since i pamper my face :(( no wonder i look so old recently *sobsob..alrite anyway i hope dey work..haha!

i still need to buy 'import' some more goods man! gotta chiong after i get money..but i dunno when..haha! now i've totally no income..lol! oh today's expenses total up to S$160 :>

warhahah ytd i found my long lost primary school friend..her name is Apple from HKG luhh..we were klassmates in P3 n we were very very close friends at that time..but later we went on diff klasses n seldom contact..n as time goes by..we dun contact at all..till there's no contacts left to contact..BUT! i found her in Facebook! haha!!! finally! i was just trying my luck n i really found her!! she's as pretty as ever..i rmb in pri sch a lot of guys jio her..there's this silly malay guy gave her a 'golden' ring..obviously proposing..DOTS rite?? lol! she gave de ring to me..aft tad i forgot how de story goes on..LOL!!

anw we had a great time catching up n filling in de gaps in between..let me count..10-11 yrs! pri 3 till now..haha! how amazing!

she said de times when we were young..she thinks im very cute..erm like Twin Little Angels?? u guys noe wads tad? haha.. it's this..

she also mentioned that im very generous..haha! like i always give her little treats i guess..n always bring the things i like n show it to her..share with her..like my stickers n all..it's so funny when she told me..HAHAHA!! like so silly..little kids..so innocent ^^ erm..she actually also mentioned that im cute..cos.........i always like to ask her a lot of questions..lol! it seems like annoying is then de word..LOL!!! but she thinks im cute la..haha!! too bad!! :))

it's lovely to think back the times we had together luhh..so sweet :)) now we all grow up..haha how time flies..9 to 20..soon de digits will rise like no one's business..lol!

hmm..im missing Ethel..hope she's having fun there..haha! she wanted mi to pm her my home add..maybe she's sending mi something :)) hope so!! haha! :D

good nite~!

facebook

2009-02-22T22:03:00.003+08:00

yo! found myslf something to occupy my time..thks to Hui..lol! think for my hols..aft shopping..can finish up my x-stitch only half-way done..n play DS, play PS3, wad else? play piano, acc mum..hmmm..aiyah wadeva comes i just go luhh..im like super damn free..oh no sian! i haf to help mum wid de chores!!! she's sure to ask mi to do..haha but..hmmm that's something i shld help out..i promised mum..in future we will hire a maid to handle all de chores..to lighten her work..but she'll be de manager..LOL!

ahh n yah i've just joined facebook..i noe im a damn slow poke..lol! even friendster..im a few yrs slower haha! i just dun like to..ya noe follow de world too closely..actually dunno wads de diff btw facebook n friendster..not much diff sia..but nvm..

alrite gotta help Hui wid her stuff..de thing she found for me to occupy my time..haa gtg! :)

ASAT 'selling' John

2009-02-21T20:25:00.007+08:00

hp bill came..sian! there's a rise fm previous mth..hate to pay bills..nvm i must look at de brighter side..in de near future my bf will pay for ALL MY EXPENSES!!!!! :DDD muahahahah~!!

speaking of which, just now had dinner wid YF..that ASAT was damn sick..match-made me n John when John is right behind me..WAD DE??? thanks man! he said 'nvm we're very open one..hahah!' i replied 'sorry im very closed..' how am i supposed to say anything when he's so direct n John is just behind me??? he's really like..trying very hard..putting all his efforts to 'SELL' his 'product' to me sia..convincing me how good his 'product' is..haha! he n Carinna same pattern sia..aiyah apperently everyone is de same..when they wana intro me guys fm church..1st choice CFM JOHN!! i can already predict..Carinna better..2nd choice gif mi KW still ok..3rd choice gif mi who u noe? AIKHUI!!! wha i cant see de link..not to say out de bad things la..but whoeva noes his 'pattern'..erm if u like u can consider him urslf..but it will nvr be me..hello how old is he? not my age grp..no looks..not saying i only go for looks..but he's way too OUT!! n his character..my hair will stand when i see de way he do things..buay tarhan..Carinna best..thank you! put AikHui as a choice for me..not even an option ok please..dun haf Tian En gimme AH..k la at least got KW..

but ASAT n Carinna said similiar thing..'ermm..KW ar..he's kinda diff to fish u noe?' yar dunno if he's playing hard-to-get..wad they said is kinda true i must admit..he has all de qualities im looking for..of cos de guy i look for must be tip-top! at least have some substance luhh..so if i eva wana find a guy like him it's really like one in a million..hey they're trying to say that im not up to de standard for KW?? thanks! am i that bad? hah anw..let's stop talking abt him..

but just now ASAT talked abt mi n John was really awkward..but we're able still smile off la..yeah already warn him not to make de situation so awkward nxt time..dunno if he'll get tad in his head..haha! he's a cute joker..haha!

but seriously John is not my type luhh..shd reserve him for other younger girls who need him more..lol!

for me what i think is if really wana find a bf fm church..hmmm really tough..hais in Faith Church de guys availablility is very limited..not much to choose fm..wana narrow to my age grp? de no. gets even smaller..wana talk abt my type of guys? either taken or it's barely possible..de rest? can skip! lol..

hais im turning 20 this year man..my plan was to start hunting for a serious bf when i step in 20..till 22 it's max already..die die must get one..n get started..a few yrs later see how things work out..but..aiyah talk so much, plan so much, wads de use? everything still lies in God's hand..so just leave it to Him la..if it's time then..everything will go His way..back to de same thing..pray and.................W-A-I-T :))

today my ulcers are kinda.........better? some are not as painful..but still not getting smaller..but at least it's not as pain..it's good enuff..thank God..just now only ate ice-kachang for dinner..maybe ltr will get hungry again..dunno wad can i eat..im having difficulties eating solid food..oats or porridge is still ok..cant be hot or spicy..so poor thing..cant enjoy food :<

k just got back not long..wana go bathe already..ciao~

*meanwhile if got any good quality guys rmb to intro ar! we can talk abt de standards privately..hahah!! ASAT n AikBin noted..LOL!

terrible ulcer-days

2009-02-20T21:54:00.009+08:00

papers finally over FOR NOW..cos im lacking of confident to pass all my modules..hais..im worried for my results now..but wad can i do? haha just pray n wait..IF i fail..hopefully there are supp papers waiting for mi :(

now i really felt more relaxed finishing my papers..not to think of de results part..haha..but now im experiencing pain!!!!

have u ever in ur life..till now..kena 9 ulcers over a short period of time? for me YES! it's not even a week now..i've gotten 9 ulcers over these 6 days!! SIX DAYS ONLY!! wad de!!

how i got it? it goes like this.......

last Sat was V.day rmb? i went over to Bei's hse..for lunch i ate fried wanton and i accidentally poke myslf in both upper n lower lips..but tad's nth much..

till i bit myslf while eating, over the same site where i poked it wid de fried wanton before..then it started to develop into ulcers aft 1, 2 days..

first 2 ulcers top and bottom of lips..

out from no where..2 more came along..

then, 2 more..

2 more..

one more..

let's see if tml any more new comers come over n visit..

de old ones get bigger, worse and painful each day while new ones come in..and it goes like this day by day..

de wanton is de main actor for this whole ulcer episode..but other factors come in too..

1. under stress..cos of exams luhh! not prepared..not enuff time to study..not confident..STRESS!!

2. chiong like mad >> lack of adequate sleep and no resting time except for meal times :(

1. & 2. result in low immunity >> ulcer development & deterioration..

3. heaty within own body..de environment plus stress >> thyroid inflamation.. left side came n gone..now is right side..

4. heat oso for probable in-coming menses..LOL! i can feel it.. it's coming real soon..hormone imbalance..

so it all adds up n PPOOOFFFFFF!! "congrats u've just won urslf a trip to 6 days Ulcer-world trip!! it may prolong if u cant find ur way home!! :> "

i hope this trip ends soon.. SAD!!!!!

cant eat or drink properly..cant talk & cant freaking laugh..tads de worst if i laugh!! i talk like as if i got short tongue..man!

Sun sure cant attend choir again..i cant even talk normally..sadded n sianded!!

now papers over..looking for pple who got money n time to spend wid mi..SHOPPING!!!!!! haha..wanted tml..but when im in such state..i dun think i can enjoy any bit of shopping :<

i better work hard on recovery..pray for mi dudes..

playing bro's PS3 recently..Resident Evil 5 and this Guitar Hero game..haha so cool! RE5 is so exciting..when i first played i even sweat..haha! too kan chiong..lol..it's fun :) although it can be disgusting..de zoombies..and scary too..but it's cool if u play wid pros like bro..he's damn good man..aiyah he's apparently good at most stuff..not just good..it's SUPER EXCELLENT!!

oh talking abt it..he's IQ test he did just now was 151 or 150? forgot..it's considered high for a normal ave. person lor..power!! i think mine already slightly above ave pple le..he's really power man..100 is normal..im 120+ de last time i took..like a few yrs back..at least 2 ba..wa IQ test got a whole lot of qns! so i dun really like to do..though i really wana know if i became smarter or stupid..haha! maybe will try during my 3 weeks break..if im unemployed :)) will be damn free..hopefully my money will haf remainder even aft shopping..HAHA!! so can last throughout these few weeks..

ahh im going off le..so tired..take care dudes!! *err btw my meaning of dude not meaning only for male..it's for all..haha! i call my bro BABE! and he call mi HUNK!! HAHA JUST KIDDING!!!! actually im not..lol!

updates: mum's birthday, v.day, Britain 13

2009-02-18T19:05:00.026+08:00

hello~!! how's life huhh?? haha Friday will be my last paper for this sem..finally i can see de light shining through~

alright let me do some updates k..

13 Feb :) Mummy's brithday!!

morning wished mummy a happy birthday..gave her card n presents..

evening aft my paper met up wid dem n had dinner tgt..we kinda enjoyed de dinner..hmmm maybe i shld put it that..only Hui enjoyed de steamboat..we ate at ZhenFa @Novena..yeah she recommended it of cos she enjoyed luhh..de rest of us were so wanting to get de hell out..

then we went home and cut de birthday cake!! :>

14 Feb ^^ Val Day!!

how ya spend ur v.day?

mine was like..DUHH~ who else can i spend with? or rather WHAT else!

i had a lovely time with my books and notes :))

but b4 tad Bei invited mi over to her place so i went in de morning..she wanted to pass mi some chocalates n stuff for V.day..so sweet rite? Bei's always so nice to remember my share..haha..that time CNY oso pass mi things..but everytime i got nth to gif her..i cant freaking COOK!!!! bake or wadeva..im super louya one..

MR. &MRS WINTON :>

it seems like almost everything she needs, she has it..i dunno wad i can gif her to show my appretiation for de things she has done for me..man if u wana talk abt this..it starts long long ago..since we're in sec sch..cos i ALWAYS get myslf into trouble..wid frens, sch pple and de teachers most of de time..n Bei is always the one to 'bail' me out..de Rick thing was really unforgettable..haha! i still rmb..my lies were so dumb..can u imagine me as de very nasty n rebelious student n Bei was de vice HEAD-PREFECT!!!!!! lol..but she oso attitude de ok! dun play wid her..she'll burn ur face to ashes! lol! she's de HOT devil among de angels..haha..

haha Bei..i really owe u a lot..since we became friends..

Sunday >> hmmm..can i haf more hints? i really wana know more :\

Monday 16 Feb :( Ethel flew to Sydney~~

also my paper continues on..study study study..take paper take paper take paper..

tad day i had a chat wid GuoBin..haha we super long time no see..n long time no chat..cos somebody always act big machiam like some big business man..when he's online he apper as offline..lol! so everytime he will inititate to talk to me on msn luhh..haha..think after Fri we can come out one of de days..guess it's like hmmm..2 years since we last seen each other..how time past..yeah soon we will meet up..haf been using this statement 2 years ago..lol!

Tuesday 17 Feb :> Esplanade Library!!

haha i asked bro de other day..

me: 'hey bro, where will be a good place to be able to study wid concentration?'

bro: 'hmmm..everytime when i nidda study for exams i'd go to Esplanade library..'

me: 'wa so far sia!! really haf to go there ar??'

bro: 'it's quite a good place luhh..can try..'

me: 'ok la then..u come wid mi la..bring me there..acc mi study ok?'

so we went there..it's not bad la really..except for some noisy little kids there..dint they noe tad this is a library? QUIET PLEASE~!! school freaks..pissed me off..

today 18 Feb!

paper again! so yea..gonna study n prepare for Friday's paper later :<

de media is now saying that there are 2 more guys..also have de posibility of becoming the baby's father! heard that she slept wid these 3 diff guys before tads y now it's so confusing! but de 13 yrs-old father said he will do a DNA test to prove that he is de only guy she slept wid n he must be de father..like crazy sia..so young lor..n oso abit brainless.why wld de 2 guys admit that dey had this kinda relationship previously wid tad freak ger if it's NOT TRUE? why wld they say that? hais..

UGLY BFs!!!!

actaully de 13 yr old father oso had a sad family background..POOR family background i must say..it's super confusing!! wana noe clearer by urslf? will put de links below..

BTW! he is not de youngest father..haha! got another Britain boy became a father at de age of 12..

hais de society now is so havoc..wad isit gonna be like a few yrs later? man to even thinking of my kids in de future..now i fear having kids..not the pain..it's de path of my kids..i still believe tad FAMILY education plays de most crutial part! parents-in-future..please educate ur kids well :))

links from Bei..thanks!

http://www.thesun.co.uk/sol/homepage/news/article2240802.ece
http://www.thesun.co.uk/sol/homepage/news/article2233878.ece
can read de family part at de right panel under 'Related Stories'

exams!

2009-02-12T16:21:00.007+08:00

hi folks! doing good? :>

tml is my fers paper!

it's mum's birthday too!

my paper starts late afternoon, so aft my paper can go out and haf dinner tgt and celebrate mum's birthday! :>

Hui suggests giving her a surprise..but cant really work for now..so perhaps..MOTHER'S DAY!! :) there's owaes another time..

we've it all planned out for tml..so hope everything goes as planned and......

we're gonna haf FUN!!! :D

received aunt's birthday card to mum :) she's owaes so thoughtful..sending us cards on special occassions :>

hais..i dun even noe when her birthday falls :((

ahh ytd Wen Shiun asked mi to go see this online blog shop he n other 2 frens created..think dey just started trying out..hmmm im sure there are lotsa rooms for improvements :> jia you ba!

if u guys wana go see see here's de link:

http://queenpetitewear.livejournal.com/1299.html#cutid1

but for me..i prefer sweeter type of clothings..S'pore style is not my cup of tea..so common n nth special! i prefer Jap type..

i rmb Wen Jing recommended mi one online shop too..it's from Taiwan..i quite like de clothings dey're selling..

tad time when she showed mi i had a good impression but dint intend to eva go shop n buy online stuff..cos i seriously prefer going out to shop..see and feel it..wear it on, try it out personally..

buy online can only see cant touch n feel de material..n looking from screen is oso diff fm seeing it real..cant try out..if buy le cant fit or anything very sad lo..money fly away le cant get back..still got plus shipment fee and other extra fees..

but this time rnd i got de feeling to try it out..cos im so tempted to buy their clothings!! there's so many of MY TYPE of clothings!! n in S'pore i cant really find dem..so here's my chance!!

yeah im quite determined to try it out..im already asking around on how these kinda thing works..and plus it's all in chinese..those old time chinese characters sommmore!! i only noe how to read some characters..den de sentence i must guess myslf out from tad few characters i can understand..lol..chim!

alrite shall talk abt it some other time..im now trying to destress myslf..can feel tad my head is exploding soon..information overload..ltr play resident evil on PS3 wid bro..ytd promised him..but dint play wid him in de end..lol! so today pay-back luhh..

alrite will update again soon..gosh..my brain is full wid drug names, their side effects etc..im going nuts soon!! this end-sem exam lasts for 2 weeks! pray for me..bye~

back!

2009-02-08T20:19:00.022+08:00

hi people im back! yeah these few days really cmi..eva since aft de CNY hols then bro fractured his arm..i was like super damn busy till i dint even have enuff rest myslf..all my stress over these few weeks resulted me having one huge pimple on my nose..damn jialat now..when i looked in de mirror i see Jackie Chan's daughter..hah not so exaggerating..but it really hurts a lot!! ;{ hais im so poor thing..

posting finally over for now..even went back on Sat to pay back tad day i was absent cos of bro..mi all ALONE!!!! but nvm..i had fun there wid de other nurses..ahah!! :))

this posting i've learnt quite a lot..also i've done more skills than de previous postings..i've got ptts on NGT so had quite a few of feedings via NGT was required..and i've also done quite a lot of dressings..even aft work back home..bro's waiting for mi to change his dressing..tad period of week was really chaotic..machiam work 24hrs!

and actualy this ward we're dealing wid more of geriatric ptts..a lot of nursing care..quite a no. of DIL.max (dangerously ill list.maximum) meaning they are under this dangerously ill list and max meaning no resusitation if ptt collapse..yepp..poor thing yea? anw seen one heard quite a few..i meant like it wasnt my shift or not my ptt..like she was there good and well ytd..and today she wasnt there anymore..passed away last night..this sorta thing sometimes we argar noe de la..like soon or can last for how long..but some is sudden..not under DIL also can just go off like this..

life is very very very fragile..we always hear and agree..but can u really feel? i was there myslf..seen and heard..it hurts when someone just left..but it's all part of life..when there's a start there shld be an end..i sound like a saddist..hmmmm ok change topic :))

tink i shld say i enjoyed my posting at wd 63C..except for de fers week! yes i had a lot of complaints back then..de rest of de week got to rotate and went to diff rooms..good thing i dint regret :)) it was great! i like front and middle room..back room sucks!! hah! alrite..my CI gave me good feedback luhh..in my guide book fm NYP..yepp! i knew i can prove her my capabilities :> thank God!

had encountered both good and bad experiences luhh..wid staffs, patients etc..but overall i still quite like it :))

alrite back to fill in de gaps fm de previous post..i'll just skip some or shorten my lengthy stories luhh..

hmm..first will be on last Sat for YF..went for CNY visitations to those who opened their houses..Leng Yong's, big Jo's and Kok Wai's hse..then last station at Aik Hui's place for farewell..collected some ang-baos of cos.. *picts up

Sat is my only likely chance..i'll try harder on Sat :) God pls be on my side..hah..

Sunday..cute little angels~

now moving to a few days later..Wed! got myslf into trouble again during my shift..was quite serious at fers..i was worried for at least 2 days..but in de end i suppse i shld be fine..my CI and ward sisters were kinda on my side..so in short i got myslf outta trouble!! :> thank God! no one was hurt and i was safe..

other than tad..nth much..bro is recovering well..thank God..really man..think a lot of pple praying for him..tot he'll be more 'weak' in a way..but! he's really doing better than i expect :)) praise Him!

alrite den now mi, bro n Hui and discussing abt mom's bdae..so funny! we 3 discuss via msn..and bro n mi sitting side by side..Hui in de kitchen..damn weird sia..haha..so near use msn like damn far..aiyah cos not convenient to discuss ma..ltr mummy hear us..haha..anw we've come to conclusion..we're now toking abt bro's future partner!! :)) so lame sia! she-Jon! think only we 3 will understand de joke! hahah!!!!! whoopee!! lets wait n see who is de lucky girlfriend-to-be! :>

preparing for exams..so sian.. still waiting for WJ to msg mi de tips for topics if there are..hah! sorry! always rely on her..cos i dint go for lects ar..so yar..thanks girl & im sorry :<

V.dae is coming up soon! got urslf a date? prepared ur presents and surprises etc?? gotta act fast! haf fun!

dream a little dream of me

2009-02-02T20:01:00.004+08:00

sry pls pardon me..will blog after some time later :))

tired!!

2009-01-30T20:07:00.005+08:00

today this scene kept flashing back..de sentence kept running through my brain..

".........i've always look good in you..but u've disappointed me today..go and do some refletions yourself......"

wah piang..aft i heard this coming from my CI..im like super sad luhh..my tears started to flow out man..but of cos i tarhan till aft she left..was damn sian..very sad..embarrassed..n disappointed in myslf..

she told me tad was because during a dressing procedure..i left out de surgical handwash..

but im more disappointed in my own overall performance during these few weeks..not just tad surgical handwash thingy today..also cos i overlooked de minor but basic things happening..actully is lazy n cant be bothered..resulting in neglecting and forgetting..hais..shld start afresh nxt week..will be assigned to another 2 rooms..gotta adapt again..no prob man..i can adapt within 2 days..haha!!

but actually after tad dressing procedure CI accessed me.. a SN(staff nurse) asked mi to do one more dressing on another patient..this time it was so much better..quite successful..went smoothly..got everything right..n i dint leave anything out..just unsure of de bandaging part and she gladly take over and teach n show mi..good nxt time i can do all on my own..and i will show CI my capabilities and not disappoint her again..

im damn tired..these 2 days dint get enuff slp..abt 4 hrs only..4.30am wake up..den slp in bus..b4 and after shift work..wad a tiring life..dun even haf time to get a new powder..was just complaining this to Carinna only..hais..

tml..HAIS!!!! CNY visitation and some farewell dinner la..if not aft de visitations i go town straight buy my powder plus shopping..sianded!!!! nxt week den la..AIYAH CANT!!!! i just remembered..nxt Sat i will be paying back de shift work i missed on Wed cos of bro..walao eh!! again..no time..den gotta prepare for exams le..aft attachment tad following 2 week is for exams le..sian..i nth to say le..see how la..SIAN!!!

now just hope bro can faster recover..hopefully his downPES is TEMPORARY..if permanent he cant be his RSAF pilot le..damn sad damn sad..hais!

oh btw he was already dscharged and resting at home..but he very kii-kee..meaning stubborn..he insists to go out on Sat and Sun..to church for YF n service..but mummy wants him to rest at least a few weeks until condition is more stable la..wa den quarrel..hais..just stay home la..very boring i noe..but if anything happens to u outside again how? de hand haven recover yet..one push or knock tads it la..sure gone case..everytime let pple worry..aiyohh..just finish op a few days wana go into big crowds..how to let mummy n us feel safe..a least one or two weeks la deyy!!

alrite i think i gotta find some food n go slp soon..im very tired! tml 10am nidda reach church..wa i tot can slp till at least noon lor..hais!!!!!!!!! ok good nite pple :)) hope u had a better week than me..

KORKOR BROKE HIS L ARM

2009-01-29T22:11:00.010+08:00

damn shag tired n sleepy right now..but still have to carry on if not i wont noe how long will i drag on..ok now for WEDNESDAY!! this is de headline!!

my beloved handsome + pretty korkor FRACTURED HIS LEFT RADIUS AND ULNA!!

erm ok for those who's starting to haf question marks on top of ur head..it's de lower part of ur.....AIYAH SMALL ARM LAH!! it's basically made up of 2 bones..radius and ulna..and he broke both! OUCH!!!

de most horrible thing was i actually saw his arm looked like wad i drew on de right!!! eewwwww!!!!!! it's so scary!!

wad happened was...........he was in Tekong serving his NS..@ 7.45 am he started de SOC (standard obstacle course) and at abt 8 plus this incident happened..he was supposed to get to de other side of this log thingy..and he lost his balance..slipped and fell..he tried to break de fall using his left arm cos he had his rifle on his right arm..his intention was to break de fall but instead it broke his arm off..tsktsk! but good thing was that de bone dint poke out his arm..eewww!! his nerves, arteries and veins are all intact..he can still move a little and feel..thank God..

korkor is really brave man..he can tolerate this pain..it's like..i cant describe..imagine u kena this fracture..both bones broke and he tolerated with this unbearable pain for more than 12 hrs!! of cos he had one anaesthetic jab to kill off de pain when in de medic at Tekong and a few hrs ltr de doc gave him one more jab cos de pain is getting more n more unbearable..but it doesnt block off de pain completely..so he just keep tolerating de pain..keep praying tad God will gif him strength to tarhan all these pain and be brave to overcome this..

to think back..it was ard 9 plus 10am when we received a call from SAF..called mum's fone..and she was kinda like out of control..cried and cried..tot wad happened sia! i am still washing up at tad time..suddenly was so clueless..tot bro got shot or something..rushed out and listen carefully..somehow caught some info and then aft she hung up we changed and rushed to CGH..damn bloody far!! far from home..far from SGH!! cos im having attachment at SGH now ma..mm it's at CGH cos it's near de coast i think..it's de nearest hospital..anw took a cab and got there..everything was damn draggy!! was then told tad CGH do things damn slow one..hmmm ok i believe aft this experience..

got there at 10 plus waited for admission then X-ray and for bed..finally at 3pm got a bed and got up de ward..but still cant do anything..waited for de doctor to come and see his condition..it's abt 5 plus? i forgot..discussed abt his condition and briefly abt de op..took his blood for examination and stuff..

at 7 plus de surgeon came and gave us de details..he said bro's injured site was swollen and cant start de op..cos aft de op cfm will get swollen..so if it swells now and still cont wid de op..surely aft op de hand will be damn super swollen till mayb cant even stitch back..a lot of complications..infections..may affect or injure de nearves or veins etc..and his temperature has started to go beyond de normal range..so de main impt thing was to bring down his temperature and get him to lie flat and lift his arm up to prevent too much bld flow to de injure site..to prevent it to swell even more..

abt 8 plus 9pm he came in again n accessed bro..tad time we were having our dinner..so dey called us up telling us tad his condition is stable and can be operated..so..really thank God..finally!! we've waited since early morning for this moment to come..

mummy was really very worried and sad abt wad happened..though i know very clearly that this is considered a minor operation and shldn't be so worried abt it..but when i see mum crying..i cant help myslf fm crying too..she was too worried..n felt de pain he was experiencing etc..tads y she cant help de tears from flowing out..haha bro told her: "mummy dun be like this..i wont be paralysed.." true but i tot of it..if im a mother and my beloved child was in tad painful state..though he can still bear wid it..but de painful expressions..when u see it ur heart breaks too..hais~

finally aft all de procedures are done up..all de signing and stuff..he went in de OT and we stayed outside..mum n dad waited till de op ended..it ended at abt 2.30-3am..mi n Hui went back home aft sending bro in..cos she got work nxt day n im working morning shift..we both took tad day off..cos IT'S BRO MAN!! n cant make it for work anw..ok if we want we can rush like kee-siao..but wad for? he is more impt..

really thank God tad he's now feeling much better aft de op..just now went over to visit him all de way from SGH@Outram to SGH@Simei.. wa piang damn far!! but wad to do? haha nvm la..maybe tml not going over..cos he's like totally fine la..haha! and im too tired..not very convenient for mi too..think maybe tml last day of stay at CGH ba..or latest Sat..cos he's really doing well..he can really smile w/o faking it..haha! thank God!! :> will see how it goes la! :))

when he just got CGH wid his Sergeant..waiting for admission..
here he's still ok wid de pain..can still smile and laugh a bit..
*to clarify: he was de one who asked mi to take picts ar! not i evil..haha!

slowly de pain stat coming back..he said he's not faking it..

den shortly..he really cant find de energy to tok..and de pain was starting to get more n more unbearable..

here we got de bed n went up..his Sir came n visit..Mr Yang requested to take picts again..he tried to fake a smile..every movement he made..he haf to really tarhan de pain..cos it affects his injured arm..stand up or sit down..he haf to really slow-mo and try to bear wid it..

changed to hosp 'uniform'..he really cant take it le..dun want tok dun want move..even we touch his bed or just very gently on his head or shoulder oso cant..he will feel de pain..poor thing :<

erm aft tad de op part i nvr take le..heh..HERE!! TODAY!! see his smile?? he's back!! :)) PRAISE YE THE LORD!!

his arm..he said his wound was disgusting..de stitches n all..can see de flesh etc..hahaha!!

it wasn't tad easy for him to make this *twist ok! haha..

he made de effort..so here i am *twisting wid him..

:)) now just want him to recover asap..but de doc mentioned b4..at LEAST 3 mths..it can take up to 6 mths..but to fully recover..i think probably more than a year..cos nid rehab and all..it's like a new arm..u haf to train it all up again..de muscles there..Hui said in future she dun dare to bully bro ask him to carry NTUC bags..LOL!

his BMT considered wasted..he haf to start all over his BMT again wid another batch..tads not de saddest part..cos his dream to be a RSAF pilot is most likely to be..SHATTERED!!

i felt so sorry for him..de doc told him his arm like this..considered 'downPES'..im not too sure abt this..is downgrade to like PES C or D? or is downPES de lowest PES of all?? in anycase i guess he cant qualify to be a pilot anymore..such a pity..it's like out of 100 only ONE can get in!! he had de brain and all..he went through so much..walked this far to reach his goal..it's not too far away and this happened to him..alright maybe this is really God's will..so be it..hope we can all accept it..esp he himslf..i know he can :))

alright anything will update..or can ask mi straight la..haha! u guys take care too! good night~

CNY Day 2

2009-01-29T22:00:00.002+08:00

im now blogging on CNY Day 2..aft all de visitations, went over to Bei's hse to bai nian wid her mom + celebrate BeiBei's bdae..yepp tads her..de little birthday girl..haha! de cake damn nice lor!! it's D24 durian ice cream cake..dun see de presentation like nth hor..mai siao siao..damn nice ok!! haha dey prepared A WHOLE LOT of food sia!! cool!! she also invited her own frens of cos..all Pri 6 little kids la..HAHA!! anw..HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEIBEI!! :))

CNY - Day 1

2009-01-26T18:32:00.023+08:00

yoghurt can aid u if u're constipated or having serious dihorrea..LOL!!

alrite today is the fers day of CNY :)) sounds exciting? actually it's nth much..just go to diff places to collect ang-baos!

dint take much picts..cos we're not wearing pretty stuff..got bored of CNY..

so Hui asked mi to wear this..still considered quite new..wore a few times only..but dont look like CNY clothings..LOL! wadevaa~

my heels for today..wa i dunno how many inches loh..i only noe i haf to walk very natural..as natural as i can..LOL!

taking picts of mummy..haha SIDE-VIEW!!

act emo..

must be from China..walao eh here Singapore lor!! stop squarting ard!! esp when it's so crowded..please luhh!!

hmmm..she's my cousin's daughter..her name is Tiffany! dunno wads de term for mi to call her or for her to greet mi..LOL! just jiejie and meimei luhh..haha! cute rite! big eyes long lashes..this is Ah-Boy korkor's big daughter..looks more like her mummy Melisa..

2nd daughter..looks like boyboy rite? haha..she looks more like Ah-Boy korkor.. :)) cute sia de hair..haha! like some Sumo kiddo LOL! blurblur one..*forgot her name..oOps!

this is Ah-Boy kor's sis; Ah-Zu jiejie's daughter..Shanice? hmmm dunno if it's spelt like this..haha jiejie asked us to go to her daughter's 1st yr old bdae celebration at some chalet..BBQ la..think i shld go..since she even came to mi n tell mi straight! and b4 i left she oso informed mi once again..aiyah once upon a time she was so nice to mi so shld gif her some face..im like de apple of her eye when im young..we're 12 yrs diff..but she still look young..like 20 plus..28 ba..really haha!

haha Regina said she missed me..i missed playing DS wid her in sch..LOL!!

tml is last day of hols..aft bai nian tml gotta go out buy things le..if not dunno when free..got a damn long list luhh..wa sian plus i nidda buy powder n just tad refill cost 52 bucks..so much of my ang-bao money fly away..*sobsob

ahh! just saw Henry korkor walked past!! go his hse bai nian get some extra bucks!! LOL!! ahh ask him to bring us out for ice cream too!! wa i think i really noe how to help pple get a BIG hole in their pocket :>

alrite anything den update :)) heh meanwhile everyone esp the Chinese..please enjoy ur new year even though u're like mi sian of it already..hahha! take care!

updates

2009-01-24T23:04:00.008+08:00

RIO DE JANEIRO, Brazil - Health officials say a Brazilian model whose feet and hands were amputated because of an infection has died.

Officials said in a statement early Saturday that 20-year-old Mariana Bridi's condition deteriorated overnight. She died at 2:30 a.m.

The Espirito Santo State Health Secretariat said in the statement she died from complications related to a generalized infection. It was caused by the bacteria Pseudomonas aeruginosa, which is known to be resistant to multiple kinds of antibiotics.

Bridi had been in the hospital in the city of Serra in southeastern Brazil since Jan. 3. She fell ill in December and doctors originally diagnosed her with kidney stones, local media said.

Bridi was twice a finalist in the Brazilian stage of the Miss World pageant.

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tsktsk sadded..wasted..pretty and young..

one kuku-kia sent mi this msg via FS..idiot!

>>are u open minded? mind to leave me your number? willing to spend.<<

bloody asshole!! this is de 2nd time!! wad u trying to say huhh?? super insulting can? sicko!! get lost luhh!!

bro came back last night..he looked so super bangala lor! lol!! but he's complexion is tad type tad will fade back to his normal colour de..so ok la..he cant go bai nian wid us le..but im sure he'll receive his share..haha..

thank God dad and mum are fine right now..dragged for so long le..mths!! finally dey settled le..glad dey're ok now..haha! can enjoy CNY le! :>

still finding a day to come out wid Ethel :<> will miss her :(( one year lehh! must take picts wid her till im satisfied..haha!

2nd day of CNY going to Bei's place bai nian..celebrating Beibei's bdae too..she's Bei's youngest sis..haha..dunno wad to get for tad little mischievous ger..must crack my head a little..alrite going to watch my dvd le..so till then..enjoy ur new year!! :))

ciao~

*p.s: tml is Yi Fan's bdae!! blessed birthday Joy's mum!!!!!!!

last office

2009-01-24T01:03:00.013+08:00

hi folks..today is Friday le! maybe Saturday..haha..anw today was a............i dunno how to describe today..

good thing was im working same shift with Ethel :> im so happy luhh! lemme tell ya..it's really an honor to know Ethel..cos everyone was like "u know Ethel ar?...how u get to know her one?..." etc..lol! i can see tad dey were all envious of me in such good terms wid Ethel..hahah!!

finally returned her stethoscope..wa that was like since i got into nursing..till now!! such a long time!! lol! tot can take some picts wid her today wid our uniforms..but she said she look so shag so postponed to nxt time wen we come out..most prob either CNY or b4 she leave for Sydney..hah! hmm..wana do a farewell card for her..gotta buy some more materials! :))

`````````sry i wana go slp le..so tml den cont. LOL!``````````

hihii..sry was kinda tired so decided to turn in instead..so erm to cont. from ytd..where was i??

apart from de good part which was wid Ethel..

it was de fers time i see it wid my own eyes..my patient kicked de bucket in front of me..i can quite control myslf well..de tearing part of cos..as a healthcare profession u haf to be mentally strong and so called heartless..esp when encountering this kinda 'experience'..although this was my fers time encountering one IN FRONT of me..i think i did well..a little shld be fine as a fers-timer..tad J.X gave mi tissue when her whole head was like a big red tomato hah..she's trying to make it as if she's not de only one crying isit..ha..

it was really sad to see someone pass away in front of ur very own eyes..slowly he just fade away..and all u can see is a straight line..de heart beat..den when u inform de family members..u will see them so helpless and depressed..then all the sorrows and grieving..my heart ached again and felt like weeping..to hide all these unacceptable emotions i just looked away..avoiding is de only way left for me..

wanted to do last office (a procedure where we will clean up de body, tidy up, wear their own clothings and wrap it up wid a white cloth..we call it Kimono..) tads de last thing i can do for my patient..also i haven done it before as cases like this is hard to come by..but in de end i dint get to do it personally..i was in de middle of my dinner when i received a call from Ethel telling mi tad dey haf to start already..i just finish up quickly and rush over..hais..

news

WASHINGTON (AFP) - - A female Chinese graduate student was decapitated by a fellow student in a campus cafe at Virginia Tech, the scene of the worst school shooting in US history in 2007, police said.

At approximately 7:00 pm Wednesday (0000 GMT Thursday), Yang Xin, a 22-year-old graduate student from Beijing, was killed at an Au Bon Pain cafe on the Virginia Tech campus in Blacksburg, Virginia, university officials said.

They added that emergency contact records suggest that Yang and the student who murdered her, Zhu Haiyang from Ningbo, China, knew each other. According to officials, witnesses said Zhu, 25, attacked Yang with a knife.

"There were seven witnesses in the cafe. There had been no argument, no shouting" when the young woman was attacked, said Virginia Tech spokesman Mark Owczarski, confirming that Yang had been decapitated.

The Collegiate Times, the university's newspaper, said police received a 911 emergency call minutes after the assault and the officer who arrived at the scene found Yang's head had been cut off. The murder weapon, a large kitchen knife, was found at the scene.

In a copy of a police affidavit published by the Collegiate Times, the officer said that when she arrived at the scene she found Zhu holding Yang's head in his hand.

"This is horrible and tragic. Especially when we know that Virginia Tech has got its share of hardship and horror," Owczarski said.

In April 2007, Cho Seung-Hui, a 23-year-old Virginia Tech student born in South Korea, shot 32 fellow classmates and teachers to death before killing himself.

Zhu was charged with first-degree murder and was being held at a county jail. He had not had a record with university or local police, the school indicated.

Yang had arrived at Virginia Tech in early January to begin studies in accounting. Zhu was a PhD graduate student in agriculture and applied economics.

wad exactly was his motive to murder her? lovers before? anw he shld be admitted into IMH..study till ki-siao liao..PhD sommore..must be this reason..

thinking of PhD..neighbour Henry korkor oso studying his PhD in London..just got back a few days ago..he's having his break..just nice ar CNY period..shld warn him..sommore his gf is from China..LOL!

CNY is really ard de corner le..and im still thinking of wad to wear..hmmm..got a lot of things to do oso..prepare for new year..clean and pack up my stuff..trim up my nails..ahhh and i still gotta do my h/w!! my attachment stuff of cos..wad else man..sianded! yesh can get extra ang-baos on Sat..go YF ma..got CNY visitations..then our CI oso giving us :> maybe i shld go visit Ethel! haha!! hmmm..wana go find Bei..haven go over for a long time..de last time i went her hse to bai-nian was 2 yrs ago..if im not wrong..haha sry!! yar i think i shld go over this year..she made me CNY cookies by herslf..yepp set!

to people..sometimes im very warm but sometimes im damn bloody cold..i think it depends on who i wana warm up to..all i can say is sorry..and for those who tried to come close..i always acted like a big ice berg..no matter how u blast ur flame..my heart is still as hard..too bad..yar click it for ur own reference..tads de main part i've extracted out..

no you cant read my poker face

moved to Middle rooom

2009-01-21T22:32:00.008+08:00

yoyo! how u guys doing? erm me..changed room le..fers day in middle room was on tue..why not monday? dont ask..cos of some kuku reasons..make mi piss only..good thing i can change room..BUT! middle room is not easy to handle too..u get wad i mean..mainly de staffs! alrite tads for de fers day..i managed to get some ice-breaking myslf n things went more smoothly..and today was my 2nd day..it was so so much better :>

and today someone got a reminder/negative feedback from CI..as usual >> rebuke..it's part of de scene we will sure get to see luhh..nth special..as de old saying goes..'gou gai bu liao chi shi' >> (direct translation) a dog will nvr change it's habbit eating shit! dun enjoy working wid her..cos i haf to be real real careful..i dunno when she'll stab mi at my back..she's damn sly..really..2 victims during diff postings..i dun wana be in de 'Victim's List' haha!

I SAW ETHEL TODAY!!!!! as in finally working in de same room :)) but im morning today and she's afternoon..tml she's morning and im afternoon :(( but good thing was on friday we're both on afternoon!!!! im so happy!! finally we can work tgt in de same ward same room and same shift :> as least i haf a day wid her..hopefully i can learn as much as possible from her..if she's too busy to kinda like coach mi den..hais too bad lor..

ahh guess wads her height?? onehundredandseventytwocentimeters!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! gosh! can donate some to me? haha! man im gonna start my praises on her again..better control myslf..hah..she's too good luhh..cant help it..oh and saw her name tag..lol cos i forgot her chi name..Yu Ting..erm if im not wrong..actually thinking abt it now..doent it sounds like someone else's name? does it ring a bell? gosh!!! it's ruined!! okok..same name but diff pple so diff meaning..shucks!!!

hmmm..hopefully dad n mum can break off their barrier soon..before CNY..drag on for so long le..hais..faster gao-dim luhh!!

actually ytd saw California Roll..when im outta hse heading to de bus stop..at a distance while still walking..i saw his face when he turned..and im like wad de!! i act as if i dint see him unless he called mi out den too bad la..but he dint even though he saw mi too..but he dint notice tad i saw him and acted blur..lol! hais i see no point talking to him luhh..im so afraid tad he'll msg mi abt this..and in de end he did msg-ed mi and i cont. to act gong la..he said he saw mi but i dint see him..yar..i act only! hmmm maybe he's faking too..maybe he saw mi act gong ignore him..haha..aiyah i think he's not like mi la..maybe he really dint noe tad i saw him..anw he mentioned to mi tad he's leaving to NZ for abt a wk..de thing is..it's not my prob! i dun wana noe either! i dun even eva wana hear anything abt you! forget abt this whole thing!

anw was thining abt meeting Ethel before she leave for Sydney..maybe shld meet Jerryboy too..if not 2 of us only ar..plus one more more fun! haha..yar den can gif jBoy a chance to spend his money on frens..haha GOOD FRENS MA!! lol! live ATM!! :)) yumyum! come jBoyjoin us :))

my dear dear girl Kee Bei Ying..haha! she asked mi to meet her if im free today..wana pass mi something..she's so sweet luhh :>

see this? a box of CNY cookies!! got hazelnut, pistachio, cashew nut and pineapple tarts!!! so thoughful lor!! she made it herself ok!! haha tad time she oso made mooncakes..it was great! too bad u pple no kuo-fu..lol! i haven try her cookies yet..today a bit full ar..tml ba..haha! de cookies look too good to finish up..i scared ar ltr open le haven CNY eve already gone! lol..it owaes happen in de Yang's..food cant last up to 48hrs de..ytd just went NTUC buy some CNY goods..im already counting down how long can those food and tibits last..haha!

and finally she passed mi de Christmas card she drew for mi but forgot to bring it tad day we met..so drag till now..lol! it's like CNY le Bei!! haha but good thing la..not wait till nxt yr's Christmas..lol!

Bei's sick..she said abt a week le..poor thing..faster get well ok girl! :< den we can come out and play :>

ok i wana hunt for food and go slp le..update again folks! :))

cold weather

2009-01-17T15:06:00.007+08:00

ahh many are complaining abt de weather in S'pore lately..be prepared for de worst to come!

news:

In a country where the average wind speed is around 15 to 20 kilometres per hour, it has reached the time of the year when that figure goes up to 30 to 40 kmh.

Temperatures have dropped to lows of 24 degrees Celsius and will stay that way, according to the NEA’s latest three—day outlook.

During this period, showers with thunder in the afternoon can be expected on four to five days, while stronger north—east winds may bring moderate to occasionally heavy rain on two to three days.

"The impact of the high pressure system is windy conditions across the island as we have been having the past couple of days," said the NEA.

In Singapore, some say they are falling ill. "As it is sometimes hot and sometimes cold, I had a sore throat and my daughter had high fever," said housewife Maimunah A Hamid, 56.

But for the most part, the weather has been a light—hearted topic of discussion. Operations assistant Haslinda Md Yasin, 33, said she is pleased that the wind is drying her laundry faster than usual.

Marketing executive Jasmine Yuan, meanwhile, told TODAY: "The winds are crazy. We were walking for a bit outdoors and our hair is being messed up... Until the winds improve, I’ll not do my hair." — TODAY/fa

haha good idea..don't do ur hair! it'll be a waste of efforts..lol!

saw this over at Hui's blog..long ago post of hers..alrite i noe im slow..im too busy luhh :> ma chiam some horoscope stuff..mine is Cypress Tree & hers is Fig Tree..

Cypress Tree (Faithfulness) -- strong, muscular, adaptable, takes what life has to give but doesn't necessarily like it, strives to be content, optimistic, wants to be financially independent, wants love and affection, hates loneliness, passionate lover which cannot be satisfied, faithful, quick-tempered at times, can be unruly and careless, loves to gain knowledge, needs to be needed.

Fig Tree (Sensibility) -- very strong minded, a bit self-willed, honest, loyal, independent, hates contradiction or arguments, hard worker when wants to be, loves life and friends, enjoys children and animals, sexually oriented, great sense of humor, has artistic talent and great intelligence.

hmmm others i dun haf much to say but except for one thing..'artistic talent'???......i kinda doubt tad..HAHA!

ah i've changed de paylist again..Zhang Guo Rong aka Leslie Cheung..acted in de show 'Phantom Lover'..i like tad show too..was it a movie before? dunno luhh..BUT! i'd still prefer 'The Phantom of the Opera' :)) it's REALLY REALLY NICE!! wa their voices oso damn pow-wer-der-mahh one..

alrite i gotta find something to do today..make it useful..dun haf much time to slack :<

monday going back for battle again :((

1st week of posting in SGH 63C

2009-01-16T22:22:00.009+08:00

FINALLY today is Friday!!!!! i can get some proper sleep and eduquate rest! at least i wont be waken up by alarm..hate it! when it sounds..i MUST wake up..so SIAN!! if too tired dint get up TADS IT!! n i owaes kena tad..i seriously hope tad i can still tarhan this for de nxt few mths..

it has been a tiring week for me..now im in this largest ward in SGH i've heard..it's a 100 bedders ward..C-class ward..meaning it will be SUPER DUPER BUSY!! man i dun rmb working in a C-class ward..n u noe wad? i hate this ward..ok maybe these 2 rooms/cubicles that im in-charged of for this week..

every week we will rotate ard de whole ward..meaning nxt week i'll go to other rooms to do my 'job' :D heng can change! 1stly, this ward is really CMI..i dunno abt de other rooms but de staffs working in de same rooms as mi are like so super slack la..like 3.5 out of 5 of them..wad de heck! 2ndly, the stock really like no top-ups one..wadever u want..u can NEVER get it! blanklets? OUT OF STOCK..pilow? one patient one only NO EXTRA! towel? NO MORE USE DRAW SHEET (a rather thin sheet of cloth used for shifting ptts on bed) INSTEAD! (huh? use tad to dry ptts?) pampers? USE PROTECTIVE SHEET! (????? use tad to wrap ptt's butt? really damn ECONOMIC!) BP (bld pressure) set..got like 4 or 5 of them..BUTBUT!! only 1 can work! super diao loh(-__-)''''''''' then tympanic (a device to measure temperature..one button and u'll get de reading) ?? only ONE! share among de Back rooms of de ward (4 cubicles) which is like..9+8+9+8=34 ptts!! siao! ! de para (rounds to take n monitor ptt's vital signs) can take up more than 1 hr! and de SpO2 machine lehh? only 2 to share..among de Middle + Back rooms..A LOT OF PATIENTS LA!! tads y i said..everytime de para hor..can dunno take how long de lor! just on waiting..abt 1 & 1/2 hr..i got a lot of complains lor just this week alone!

talking abt de staffs in my rooms..all i can say is i dun like de way they perform out their duties..AND within de room itslf de staffs got CONFLICTS among each others de..like got gangs sia! how to work wid pple like tad? how can u work efficiently? staff nurses and even ENROLLED NURSES can go against a SENIOR STAFF NURSE! if u dunno..dip holders grad to become staff nurses..and ITE students grad and become enrolled nurses..de position is obviously lower luhh..some is really damn irritating..de way they do things was like damn CMI..can drag then drag..can dun do dun do..everytime pretend cant see anything..see us students..command us to do 'shit' jobs..and dey do all de procedures! HELLO I'VE BOOKED DEM LONG AGO OK!! still KOPPE my procedure! kannasai! mind u..just a few more mths im yr 3=acting staff nurse ok! and u're still an enrolled nurse! a brainless one still! n worse still for those who are just a 'health care assistant'! another position even lower than EN luhh..

and my patients are damn irritating too! i mean some of my male patients..really is press de call-bell for NOTHING!!!!!!! walao ehh!! i damn free isit? when i just step my foot in de male cubicle..at least 3 of dem will gimme de hand sign and ask mi to go over..wad de heck..wad thing? NOTHING!!! or instead ask mi do shit stuff..HELLO? im a nurse not ur maid..im not so free ok? 'help me take my towel' when he just reached de towel himslf to show mi where..huh?? dint u just grab it? just pull it luhh!! walao! i must touch it n gif it to u den happy sia! and like to play wid call-bell..press once..i went in n asked "wad?"...."ah nothing" im like..HUH? NOTHING? "please, nothing dun anyhow press..this is not toy ok.."..not even 3 foots away from him he pressed one more time!! HELLO ARE U FOOLING MI??? enuff not? i had it ok!! wa piang damn peik ciek!!!!!!!!!

enuff luhh!! im going nuts..got one today..even better! like de worst of de worst for this entire week! really wana puke! NOT demented ptt ok! wearing diaper..and he pooed de whole diaper..tads alrite..de thing was he felt itchy below and he SCRTCHED IT!!!!!!! both his hands were like..FULL OF SHIT?? wa piang..im recovering from my sickness luhh so my nose still kinda blocked..when i walked past he 'EHH EHH' me..cos we cant communicate..he only understands cantonese..but my fren will be de translator..hah..anws back to topic..he 'eh' me rite? im still like..'huhh??' nicely to him la..despite him previously used vulgarities on me..for wad? for not able to understand cantonese..DOTS LUHH!! ok nvm..i dint notice his hands..my fren was like..'WA NICE SMELL!!' den im like WAD DE HECK!! shit all over!!! his hands plus NAILS! and his bed! his blanket oso kena! his shirt and pants all kena! he shit inside nvm..but he scratched and his hands touch here and there..so all kena shit!! even de cot-side luhh..dun even dare to lean! dangerous!

im like..ok faster screen and change him..he STINKS!! though i cant smell..but i can imagine it! and im already inhaling all de shit air-molecules! disgusting..his hands hor! other then shit got one more thing..damn err xin! when i saw it i asked my fren 'IS THAT.........HAIR? his pubic hair!!!!!!!!!' walao buay tarhan!!!! im super DISGUSTED!!!! i had a real hard time just to clean his hand..we both took each hand to clean..i still haf to clean his shit IN HIS NAILS! and de nails inside got like at least 1 mth of dirt luh!! black like tar! PLUS SHIT! nvm ar..went off to take something cos not enuff supply..w/o supervision..he scratched AGAIN!!!!! im going nuts!! shit again!! DINT I JUST CLEANED LIKE MAD??? AND U JUST...........!!!! wa i totally sian diao..n i already can smell de 'fragrance' when his hands dug out more shit aft scratching! i really feel like vomiting..can i just faint over and let de rest take over? de thing was..those slacker nurses peeped..and?? WALKED AWAY!! wa thanks..tads a lot of help..

in de end we just agar agar wiped his hands and get a commode and wheeled him to de toilet..he was like a stink bomb! just use water and wash him! asked those slackers to tidy de bed..YESH! helped my fren get her revenge on dem..lol! though we washed him..still got de shit smell..but is liddat de luhh..it's too strong..i think it was his nails lor..now u ask mi to help him cut nails i oso dun want..dun even dare to touch his hands lor! this ward ptt super no hygiene de lor! de facial hairs all over & grew so long le oso nvr do anything abt it de lor..de nails grew so long oso same case! it's not just hygiene..it's also for their safety e.g. like confused ptts..scratch all over de body till bld ooze out? / trip and de whole nail got rip off? etc. hais..aft this posting..i hope i'll nvr get into this ward..esp PRCP in my 3rd yr..PLEASE NO OK! will NEVER consider this ward aft grad!

man i really had enuff of these 2 rooms..i hope de nxt 3 wks de rooms i go to will be much much better la please..de bad things were like so much more than de good stuff i've experienced for this wk..cant take it!!!! stressed! till like my attitude towards only those irritating patients have changed to 'irritated mode'..sorry but u pple forced mi luhh..but only for today im damn peik ciek wid dem only..

i seriously wonder why Ethel chose to work in this ward..she's in de middle room btw..maybe middle room is better? ask her nxt wk..cos i will be in de middle rm nxt wk!! ;D yeahh!!

alrite tads all for this week..had a bad week..but i managed to maintain a good conduct..keyword: TARHAN! towards de staffs..just be in de 'innocent gang' dun side any..best way! if unhappy wid de staffs..cant stand de way dey handle stuff..kena 'bullied'..buay tarhan their bitchy attitudes..just tarhan..and tarhan!! but so far it's still ok..im handling well..dint get bullied or kena attiudes..just tad de way dey handle things i really cant stand it..if im of higher position..dey sure mar-tee!!

alrite this end-sem exam timetable was out..i think can make it ba..as in de time allowance for mi to study for my modules..though kinda packed..but it has owaes been this way..so just..try my best again! :))

ok im tired le..aft all my complaints!! hahah! i hope it gets lesser over de nxt few wks! :) cya! :D

gonna fall sick soon

2009-01-11T18:18:00.008+08:00

ahh today i felt so unwell..actually since ytd..till night time was really uncomfortable..cant get to slp too..sian! now when exposed to cold environment, my nose will start running ard and start coughing..now not so jia lat..but it's getting late so i suppose i cant get away wid it either..and actually plus hiccups now..im starting to feel sick..maybe i shld get myslf some Panadol ltr..i cant fall sick! tml is attachment le! 1 full mth i cant get sick..if not very super ma-fan one..

today these little kids came in brightened my sick day :> Roxyanne my little princess..came over to show mi her orange-flavoured mentos sweet..most probably she got it from her Sunday-Sch teacher..haha! so cute la she :)) she told mi she love orange flavour..haha..and i asked her to trade mi a sweet of hers wid my lollipop..LOL! ah i dun really like to suck big sweets in my oral cavity..i prefer normal sweets :)

actually i dun think i like sweets anymore..i love chocolates more! haha! and so we traded! wad a good trade rite? just one mentos wid a big lolli..ok if it seems big to mi im sure she thinks it's HUGE! haha..moreover she was left wid 4 more mentos sweets..lol! oh and Hui saw mi eating de sweet she gave and asked why Roxyanne dint gif her any! haha! dun forget de 'friendly' expression de kids always gif u..LOL!

she's growing fast man! like so tall for a 3+ yrs-old girl..ah..today she must be having lots of fun in klass..her hair was in a mess.haha! oh and she wore a necklace today..de pendant was Cinderella..haha she love Cindie too huh? like BeiYing..lol! i love BELLE!! actually i think de prettiest is Sleeping Beauty..anw..i prefer Belle's story..haha! ah i dun like Snow White's hair! and speaking of which..i kinda saw some kid's bag wid Disney Princesses on it..de thing was..Snow White grew LONG HAIR!!!! whoa! so tads de latest? or was that an imitaton? haha!

she's so cute luhh! she'd aways run up to de worship hall wid her maid to find her parents aft her Sunday-Sch and then start looking ard for us..and come over to our place and show us wad she has done in klass..sometimes her art&crafts, de presents she got..de sweets she earned..haha so cute! now when she talks i can understand more of it..haha i rmb-ed i dun quite understand wad she's talking last time..think she's 4 this year..if im not wrong..cos last yr when she told mi her age..sometimes it's 3..sometimes it 2 yrs old..DOTS!

oh and i realised something..she looks more like her mummy than daddy..haha..ahh maybe it's from her mummy tad she's so tall for her age! :) both her parents are tall la..but hopefully she dun grow overly tall..just stop at max 1.68m..lol! if too tall it'll limit her choice of getting a bf taller than her..haha! S'pore guys are getting shorter n shorter! haf to hunt for ang-moh bfs le!

and later aft service..saw JOY!! this little baby..today she's back to her normal self..plus a little more active than usual..so happy and joyful as always! last week heard tad Joy was sick..poor thing..thank God she's now well and active! cute little thing..and i always cant get to take a proper nice cute shot of her..she's always so curious and wanting to snatch wadeva im holding..in this case my cam..but anw..here are de few i've taken just now..haha! her teeth are growing all out soon!!

haha this is Guo Mu Shi's hand..lol..he love the little ones too :))

tml 8-4 in SGH..cool im back to GH! been near a yr since im posted there..i missed GH..ahh! Ethel told me tad im posted to de same ward she's now working in!! and im gonna be attached there for de entire mth in tad ward!!!! IM SUPER EXCITED!!!! it's gonna be cool seeing her ard esp at work! mummy said it will be a great opportunity to learn from her..YEAPP!! im looking very forward to it! but i hope i can get a good rest tonight..and i can 'function' well tml! hmm hope tad our shifts can go tgt more often and i can learn from her :> ah im sure she'll take great care of mi :)) hahah!!

im gonna miss her when she leaves for Sydney :( A YEAR!! but she told mi not to worry cos she'll go on msn..but she's always busy n packed most of de time..tads of cos..she's so capable!

alrite tads abt all im gonna haf my dinner! :D gonna be busy cos of de shift work! so cya when i see ya again! :> gotta prepare fer tml & revise my stuff for this attachment..shucks! MEDICATIONS!! hate pharmacology! anws..i'll cross my fingers and pray hard tad for this posting my Clinical Instructor (CI) will be a good one :))

NYP Open-Hse OT - Surgeon

2009-01-10T22:31:00.020+08:00

hello! today had a fun day at NYP open-hse :) of cos im not there to tour ard..although im being recognised as sec sch student and were given goodie bags and all de chap-pa-langs!

haha saw these weird pple hanging ard sch so asked dem to stop while i took a foto of them..on de left is from a DS game called 'Phoenix Wright'..de lawyer game im playing.. i did mentioned in de past posts..and on de right is some Naruto character luhh..lame chop!

alrite my mission for today in sch is to be stationed in de Operating Theatre in our health science blk and brief de students wad we will learn in yr 3 as a student nurse and then out in de clinicals playing ur role in de real setting :] in de theatre there are lots of surgeons and nurses..and today i acted as the surgeon :> cool!

im on de right..Regina is on de left..acting as a scrub nurse..assisting me :) ok i've to say..as a nurse..our role in de OT is NOT solely assisting de surgeon..it's assisting in de whole surgery procedure..and assisting de surgeon is just part of wad we shld do..yepp..we work HAND-IN HAND! not UNDER them..duhh! we play an important role too..dun underestimate us! haha! and there are lot of types of nurses acting in de OT..scrub nurse..anaesthetic nurse..circulating nurse etc..doing diff roles during de operation :))

perhaps my acting was too real..some of de students thought that in NYP there is a course where we train students to become surgeons LOL! cos they asked mi wads de diff btw NYP and NUS's medical studies..dots..im like so blur luhh..then i realised they got de rong concept..then told them im just ACTING to be de surgeon to let dem haf a clearer picture of wad it's like in de real operating theatre..in actual fact im only a STUDENT NURSE! hahahahaa!!

questions were asked tads for sure..and of cos we ans-ed wid confident! haha at least i do..dunno oso anyhow bomb..just action only! haha no la i know my stuff well ok!

alrite we took a few picts when we've free time..we were kinda busy lor..one grp by one grp..come n go come n go..continuously..dun even haf time to drink water for hrs since we started..all dried up! ya but i prefer to get myslf busy for this case..time pass damn fast unknowingly..haha!

yesh mi and my nurse :) in our full suit!

serious at work :>

take a break :)) say cheese~!!

Regina, Me and Darly :>

this is Yi Qi, Darly, and Me..im like super fat luhh..

Regina, Me and Yi Qi

Me, Regina and Yi Qi

just 4 of us together..actually is 6 de..but 2 MC..Wen Jing is one of dem..she kena chicken pox..poor thing..cant join in de fun..hope she gets well soon..

took some wid our nursing lab lecturer Ms Ho too..but she forgot to bluetooth us :<

oh and sometime during our presentation to the students..there were these 2 NYP photography club photographers came in too..and took photos of us in action..HAHA! cool..i told dem to take nicer pict of me..LOL!! later when changed back to my own clothings we saw dem outside Mac..and i waved to dem..obviously dey gave mi tad 'do we noe u??' face..forgetting im all wrapped up like a dumpling left only my 2 eyeballs! haha..i told dem "im de surgeon just now!!" lol dey laughed!

ok here are the diff types of apparatus used depending on what kind of surgery to be done..

i know they all looked almost de same..maybe even look familiar rite? de one in ur pencil box..alrite if u get a closer look at each of dem it's diff..each of dem act differently..dun underestimate them too :> each of dem haf a diff purpose..and during yr 3 when we learn all these OT stuff..one of wad we shld do is to MEMORISE de names of ALL DE APPARATUS!!! siao! stab me!

aft our shift at 6pm we changed back to our own clothes..b4 tad..we removed de fers layer of gown..here's wad we wore inside..actually i wore my t-shirt inside this..not supposed to luhh by right..but de scrub clothings not very clean ar..everyone wore b4..lol..so now i look more proper..not like some fat mice..lol! i noe my hair sux! eh just took off de 'shower cap' ok! wad u expect?? hahah!!

it's Ethel's pretty face on de cover of de health science booklet :) she's so power-der-mahh luhh!! and also on pg 6 of de booklet if u haf..tads her face..(*p.s she dun look like this..there must be prob wid de cam or something..IM SURE!!) and her whole pg of speech..haha..ok 3/4 luhh..not bad already lor! only those top students can then appear up there ok! wa if u compare her awards and credits wid others on de nxt few pgs..u'll really haf nth to say..she won too many awards!!! let mi list dem out for u :>

Diploma in Nursing with Merit Class of 2008

CapitaLand Healthcare Frontliners' Award Winner

Gold Medallist, WorldSkills International Competition 2007 ('Caring' category)

Tay Eng Soon Award Winner

Ministry of Health Gold Award Winner

Singapore Nurses Association Award for Clinical Education in Nursing

Awarded the Alice Lee Institute of Advanced Nursing Scholarship
Staff Nurse, Singapore General Hospital

finally done wid it..a lot rite? im going ki-siao!! she's too........AWESOME!!!!

young, pretty, super bright, super tall for a girl, super good complexion, super fair, speechless!! she's too good to have..whoever trys to get close to her better haf some substance too ahaha! she just graduated and now working at SGH as staff nurse..will be leaving soon for her degree in Sydney..eh not all can haf de chance to go there too..only smarties :) even tougher than getting into local Uni(s).. in Sydney de Nursing Deg only nidda study for 1 yr :)) short and sweet..haha..her future is too bright luhh..way to go Ethel! :))

i wish to be like her :>

Kongster vs. California-Roll

2009-01-10T10:18:00.007+08:00

received this email a few days back saying tad there are cancer agents found in certain face wash, face creams, body lotions and BABY lotions even! some from OLAY, Johnson's, Clean & Clear, Biore etc..too much! gosh..be careful when u use them..if u dint receive de email and wants it just let mi noe..i dun mind sending it to u..hah..

my new bracelet..mummy brought for me cos i told her my old bracelet died on me :<

this one mummy brought for mi when i was very young..haf been wearing it till a few weeks ago..it died on me :<>

alrite then..morning everyone!

gosh later gotta go back sch for de open hse..my shift is from 2-6pm..alrite la 4 hrs only..in de OT hopefully it'll be fun chatting wid kids..hahaha!! im 20 this year luhh..sadded..

was still chatting wid Hui last night..i told her tad 8 more mths and i will hit a '2' in my age..yeah i quite mind..those reaching like me or already hit le will then noe how is that feeling like..horrible thing affecting me!!

de thing was..a few years back i told myslf that b4 i reach 20..i haf to catch some fishes! and if i hit 20 already..i must find one! cos wana enjoy life earlier luhh..hahah! so when Regina told mi she'd most probably get married off wid Alex by de age of 23..im like WHOA!! tads so great luhh :[ me ar..before 25 im happy enuff..yea now wad i can do is WAIT!!! still wait..what else??

ytd met up wid Wen Shiun to catch a movie..he said that was a Christmas movie..but even so..in de theatre there was still a lot of pple watching this movie!! haha..maybe everyone was too busy during tad Christmas period..no time to catch Christmas movie..we watched 'Bedtime Stories'! it was kinda lame..hilarious la..not bad..can try for those who haven watch yet..

also i saw Philemon! who is he? hmmm his identity a lot sia..hahah..he was someone like a tuition teacher to me once upon a time..he was my church friend, my big brother, a doctor.........but dunno he fly to which church already..so..long time no see..ytd was quite surprised to see him outside..wid his gf..then he saw me too and called mi out..i told him.."u're getting fatter!" LOL..he laguhed and said it's better to haf more 'BAHH' lol..sick! i prefer him last time..young and good-looking..not so puay like now..lol..make himslf so much like a married man now..hahahaha!!

oh other then Philemon i saw Abi too! haha..he grew some..is that called a beard? hahaha..that disgusting trend la! grow like 5mm of hair at de chin area..sick! he made himslf look so ah-pehh too..man! thinking of it..Abi oso looks like he grew fatter..man these few days guys are too well fed..starting to grow horizontally..please hit de gym or at least track field!!!!

oh actually 2 nights back..something funny happened man! i had a great laugh in my dream! i dunno man..i just dreamt of something funny..cant really rmb..think i was watching TV? lol tv again..and i started to laugh..and laugh..and again! untill i woke up from my own laughters..and im like 'DID I JUST LAUGH OUT FROM MY DREAM????' and i woke myslf from it..and wads nxt? i saw mummy's head popping out looking at my direction..i think i woke her up with my laughters too! hahahah lame!!! sorry! nxt morning i asked her..she said she heard some noise..then saw mi laughing..LOL!! stupid sia!

so far this was my fers experience waking myslf up wid my own laughters! lol..God knows im sad maybe tads why He gave me a good laugh in my dreams :> thank God! tad was a cool one!

daddy's coming back on de 19th he said..dunno how long is he staying..got stay for CNY? will ask him again..hais..other then this..even though sch's side is getting better..i still feel a little out of place..but at least there were improvements :] thank God..then wads left will be my own problems..like getting one at de age of 20! and my percentage!!!!! im going back to check my attedance ltr! if really so suay, i planned to go to my lecturer and bullshit abit..hopefully he will let mi off..

i think i really need a strong pillar man! hais..but i think can just put aside fers..4 letters! W-A-I-T! meanwhile my hunt will cont. but de recent one wasnt going too well either..my California-Roll..roll to dunno where already..sianded!! haha ytd nite i blamed Hui tad cos we're staying under de same roof..i kena de same love-destiny as her..like her episode of 'The Big Fish'..mine is 'California -Roll' obviously..all de sad tragedies!! how long will it take for them to see? how much does it take just to let it happen? why everytime de ones who fall for you u dun like and de ones u like they just dun seem to get it?? then what u'll hear nxt is "just let nature takes it's own course" and back to de same 4 letters again!!!! W-A-I-T!

alrite im going off to do other stuff now..see if later aft i come back got any updates..till then :) cya poops!

Phantom of the Opera

2009-01-08T15:45:00.016+08:00

Phantom of the Opera

aloha again~ haven been attending sch since Wed..gosh..tml is e-learning day so no sch for me :D yeshh!! haha Hui kept asking mi why i dint go sch..she's acting like a mother now.."u cant continue like this u noe??......how are u going to take ur papers??" woots!

ahh dun worry abt tad..but still i've one tiny problem..i'll be having my 4wks of attachment at SGH starting this coming Monday..and straight after that with totally NO BREAK to prepare..it's end of semestral exam le..how de world am i going to study?? tell me please..this time i'll just bang my head on de wall luhh..

oh btw i've changed my music list on de player..it's PHANTOM OF THE OPERA!!! i really love it!! it's VERY VERY SUPER DUPER NICE!! u guys shld go n watch if there's a chance..alrite NYP library haf de DVD..go n find la..haha..i brought it back home once n Hui liked it too :)) come on luh dun be so stuck in de mud..try it! :> Phantom is so suai luh! with his mask of cos..im sure his real real person is very handsome too :)) (*btw de guy on de poster up there is not Phantom..he's...forgot his name..just some guy LOL! he's not in de lead luhh..look at his orh-biang side-burn :\ )

(* yeah this is tad uluu guy again..i still think tad Phantom is suai-er :> )

mummy says she wana go watch movie..great! means i can go out too :)) haha im so stucked at home la..please gimme some money and i'll rush out! if not i'd probably just cont. sticking wid school and home..and soon..hosp and home..unless mummy nids me to help her run some errands..so sianx!

korkor went in already..hope he had fun..haha..he mentioned before he went in..he cant wait to get in..and it's gonna be exciting etc..lol! now guys' thinking changed abt NS already huhh? not bad.haha..

Masquerade! i wana try it some day too :] oh and also i've added some new fotos to de 'stamp slideshow' on de left :)) make ur own way there hehh cya!

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updates:

went for movie wid mummy at Lido..called Ip Men it's quite nice..alrite at least i know how to appretiaite this movie..something like Huo Yuan Jia..but like mummy..i prefer Huo Yuan Jia too :))

i just got to know tad today there was this lecture..and i dint attend..de serious part was.........

de module HMSPPR in short..my percentage was already 86! and below 85% will be dabar from examination! darn! wad am i supposed to do?? fake MC oso too late already :(( gosh!! tads it la..im done for it :<

one more chance is all i need now..i need miracle! please help me :[ hais...........pray for me peeps..

alrite mi going orhorh le..good nite :[ zzzZZ.....

stats blog finally done!

2009-01-07T23:31:00.005+08:00

im so happy! stats blog is finally done up!!! yippe!! alrite for those who wana go kpo see see..i'll leave de link later..bet u guys wont noe wad it is about either..in whole..we have this module..called Statistics and we haf to hand up this stats blog tml! it takes up 40% though..haha..kinda fresh to me..hand in work via blog..haha..my part of de work ar..erm let's see..introduction, editing some of de posts..if u guys can see de graphs part..i do de red markings part..edit la..those dey dunno how to do or tired dun wana carry on, all gimme la..haha..and reflection part..do some changes to de template..and our fotos on slideshow! yess me! haha..simple work la..but my eyeballs are already bursting! been staring since afternoon! last min work..tsktsk..

korkor is going Tekong tml noon..he asked if i will miss him..hmmm..im not sure if i will miss him this time..cos de previous time he went for church camp i did missed him..like from my memory..that's de first time i eva missed his presence..hahh..yea wadeva..sounds so 'meaty'..i mean 'rou ma'..mushy..lol

just now went ard wid mummy and korkor to help find his stuff for NS..sian..everytime like to do last min work sia he..forever de same..and aft we shop finish we went to chill at Mc Cafe..saw Khai..whoo wad a coincident..yar we just talk normally now la..acting or not..who noes? for me..i'll just try hard to be friendly enough..im trying ok..really!

alrite i've told Wen Shiun that i'll be looking for a suitable timeslot to ask him out for a treat..last yr my bdae he was kind enuff to bring mi out for a treat..though simple..we had fun luhh..at least i did..haha..thanks WS! so this time it's my turn..sorry im late..i noe u will accept my reason :)) aft CNY or aft my attachment ok! hehh..

Johnny told mi he went for his check-up le..his chest pain..his diagnosis was..shld i reveal? i think not..patient's confidentiality..haha..though he's not MY patient..lol..ask him urslf! (if u noe him) haha..poor John..hope he gets well soon :))

thinking of it..just had a chat wid Yana..she was injured too..wid Seri..gosh de wound was like..so serious..i think i better dun upload de wound pict..if not u guys sure complain..haha..it's serious..very deep! dey fell off from de bike..gosh! highway..heard tad Yana dint see de obstacle upfront..was it a stone? and then dey just slipped and was injured..assistance came only after an hour..cool huh..if more serious case by de time bled to death le..

hmm..thanks ShuLing..for ur concern..im trying not to think of my troubles..today im too occupied wid that stats blog thingy le..so im not so emo today..but dad talked to mi on msn just now..about mummy..yeayea..im so..in a dilemma..i dunno wad to say..wad to do..and worse still, i cant just leave it! stab me! k putting tad aside for now..just leave it to God.......

alrite im so tired now..my eyes need rest soon..hope u guys haf a good night rest too ;>

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mummy's home :]

2009-01-06T23:29:00.005+08:00

mummy's back home finally :]] thank God she's safe and sound..

today's paper..alrite la..i'll cross my fingers and pray hard again :/ hehh..

school school school..so sick of school! im probably just not prepared to receive of wad's ahead of me..i fear wad lies ahead..im so sian of it..forget tad now..

Regina returned my Pharmaco notes..thanks to her :)) now at least i can study better for it..but i haven look tru..tml den take a look..

Wen Shiun said he noes Tim..haha but he thinks tad Tim had forgotten him..lol one conclusion from de conversation wid WS..'guys like to go for supper till late night...' why huhh? dun get it..

somethings are getting better but some are not..im going nuts soon..when there are so many problems surrounding me..i've no one to turn to..who can be more assuring and comforting enough for me to set all my worries on??

man i think im getting depression..eva since yr 2 sem 2 starts..everything is going downhill..hate it..but i still haf to live wid it..im getting so emo :/

im keeping myslf in..and i can hardly rmb how to open up and live carefree like how i did once upon a time..how long more do i haf to wait on??

mummy coming home

2009-01-05T23:00:00.005+08:00

hi peeps..just completed scanning through my lecture notes..man tads was like 2 books luhh! i started since evening 6 plus..tads like abt 5 hrs..alrite i hope im prepared for tml's test..or perhaps exam!!

today had our presentation..after going through so much trying to do at least my own part well..in de end? i wrote up 3 A5 pages and i only get to present 1 pg..wad de????? de lecturer asked too much qns..taken up so much time!!! cos got another grp oso waiting to present so she stopped our grp since im doing de ending part..wa thanks..later pple say i nvr gif my best for presentations i sian diaox..plus b4 presentation i kena weird qn..it's like damn obvious it's coming towards mi luhh..but well..make ownslf maluu by questioning mi only..

Hui said she's not feeling well..but im cant really concentrate on her and concern abt her more..cos im trying to finish up de 2 books for tml..i only rmb-ed she told mi this aft i've finished everything..yar but i really dunno wad else to say to her when she always tells mi de same thing for at least 3 times a week..i'd most probably say de same thing to her again "again...i've never heard u say u're feeling well..not ONCE..." apart from de actaul fact..i really dunno wad to say..like where do u feel uncomfortable? how was it like? lasted for how long? but cos everytime de ans i get is kinda vague..so,well is that an excuse? hahh..

YESSHHH mummy is coming back tml!!! 2.50 reach..shall call her ard 3pm haha..but bet she's shopping for wines at DFS..as usual lol! just pray that she's be back home safe :] finally i can be excused from all de houseworks :))

man NYP open-house is starting like..this thursay 8 Jan luhh..and im so suay to be involved..had to go down to sch just for this open-hse..on SAT SOMMORE!!! 2-6pm in de Operating Theatre..of cos we'll be briefed on wad to do la..guess it's just like another presentation to young kids..promote our course..like lie to them how good is our sch and this course..LOL!! k la maybe not like lying..haha but have to fake a bit..like our canteen's food are all 'VERY NICE!! YUMYUM!!' :))

Regina was so nice to help mi wid my Pharmaco notes luhh..thanks to her..haha..i dint even noe i haf to get de new manual..it's out! dint go for lects so i've got no notes..she offered to help mi wid de notes..thanks girl!! :]]

hais k la i tink i going to slp le..tml gotta wake at 9am sianx!!! waiting for mummy to get home :)) but sadly i cant fetch her :(( got sch..but nvm i noe she'll be at home waiting for mi :}

random picts

2009-01-04T19:24:00.011+08:00

ohh yar just to update some random fotos..there are some from carolling..and at Changi airport..and some YF outings picts..

Tim said this was style..erm..i dun see why was that statement made..LOL~ btw tads him!

credits to KOK WAI! :D

piano lesson

2009-01-04T18:18:00.010+08:00

yoz! kinda busy with church these few days..heh now gotta get busy wid school stuff..sianx!

anw sat went lunch with Carinna before YF..due to time constrain + we still haf things undone at j8..we chiong like no one's business..she said we were like housewives..nidda pay fone bill..deposit money in bank..return library books overdued for countless months..but i told her..there's still one crutial place tad housewives will chiong to..NTUC!!! LOL..so we're still not so 'yellow-face-auntie' yet..in de end we were a little late..still ahaha..

was practicing my new piano piece by Yiruma - River Flows In You..later John came over and he tipped mi off..lol..no la he just cleared some of my doubts and guided mi..

then got these 2 crazy fellas came over to look for mi..took fotos of mi..and john..was next? use MY fone to cam-whore themselves..DOTS! eh hello girls! y ur face on my fone? lol!

later dey asked John to play that Jay's dunno wad movie's piano piece..de sound quality abit sick huh..just bear wid it..lol..only recorded a small part :)) *it'll help if u tune de volume down :]

aft YF got this sisters' fellowship..registered last min when Carinna told mi abt it during lunch..we wore shorts..got kinda told off by some older sisters..haha sorry luhh im not aware..plus im last min lehh..lol..at de end of de programme got gift exchange!! :D this is de best part of cos..hahaha..and i got myslf a present!! :)) so shiok..BUT!! i think de present suits mummy more..lol..when she comes back gif it to her..hah!

think i gotta get a new organizer..man i cant do without one..but i nid money and time fers..

tml is another presentation! tuesday there's this combine test..aft that..can relax a little bit..thu aft we submit de stats blog is then really relax..and wait for de week to end..then here comes attachment again!! this time back to SGH :)) medical ward for 4 weeks..back to sch for 2 wks of exam..then 3 wks hols..3 wks attachment SGH surgical ward..then lastly 1 wk hols and YEAR 3!!!!!! ok thinking of year 3 now is still kinda scary to me..shucks! not very prepared yet.. alrtie just do my best for now..sometimes really cant stand myslf for being so slack..tsktsk..WAKE UP!!