Labels: perseverance and determination

Labels: i've got tired of waiting...

oh yar i wana complain lorr..just now in de morning on my way to de library i DROPPED MY PRECIOUS FONE!!!!!!!!! wad de hell man..TSKKKK!!! hais heart broken to bits n bits n bitsssss..good thing tad it doesnt appear terribly hurt..hahaa..if not i will start killing pple!! lol..

alrite i nidda say this..i noe it wasnt Regina's fault for scaring de hell outta mi by calling mi n tads y i dropped my fone..yes it's obviousy not her fault n i DID NOT BLAME HER..get this freaking right..i APPEAR to be angry is cos 1st i dropped my fone..n when i called her back..de main thing i wana noe is WHERE DE HELL ARE U GUYS HOLDING DE MEETING? n wad kinda ans do i get? "u come sch for wad?" wad do u mean by tad? i cant come? even if there's no sch n im coming to haf..a lunch? in sch..tads gonna be my problem (btw i dun do tad..it's a little extreme for mi)..

i dun like pple to ask mi stupid qns! just like my sista in de past n tad makes mi freaking pissed..n i owaes scold her for asking mi dumb qns..yepp she noes i disliked her in de past..now we're like glue..cos she's FREAKING STUPID!!!!! n when she asked stupid qns i dun bother to qn..yes the same thing applys..esp when im angry..freaking dun ask mi stupid qns! i do WHAT i wana do..

then when i reached de library my face is freaking black..n btw tads just 1% of my anger..cos i cooled down aft 5min in de lib..den Yana asked mi y my face black black..n dint say much cos i noe i cant put de blame on anyone but for myslf for being clumsy..later i cooled down Yana askd mi..so who called u n made u dropped ur fone? Shannen told her it was Regina..tads y previousy Yana asked mi tad qn i dint ans her..it's so tensed luhh..if i said it's Regina isnt it obviously telling everyone tad she's de one im putting de blame on? so i explained to Yana n Shannen was beside listening..n guessed wad Shannen said? "so it wasnt Regina's fault wad!!" i replied, "of cos i noe! n i did i even mention anything abt myslf blaming her?" am i stupid? tads y i dint say out Regina's name when u guys all looked at mi waiting for my ans isnt it? walao eh!

even if i wana be unreasonable n put de blame on Regina..it's gonna be REGINA'S AND MY PROBLEM..who are u to put in ur foot n question mi? freaking pissed..everyone has their own temper..if u see tad person is angry dun purposely ask so much and try to be a loyal fren by questioning n angering another..i feaking hate it..n i noe i've been using 'freaking' this word many times..cos im DAMN PISSED!!!! of cos now im feeling much better..but not in some other areas..

btw i forgot to apologise n clarify with Regina..she must have thought tad im angry wid her too..alrite i admit, for that fers 5 min im angry wid her cos of tad dumb reply..not cos of her call tad makes my fone drop..eh sorry ar Reina..if u're reading..haha.. noe it's a little un-sincere to ask for forgiveness here..but u shld noe tad im not angry wid u abt tad fone dropping thing ba? im not, ok! :))

anw mi n Reigina's relationship dint turn sour even aft tad misunderstanding..we still laugh abt n went home tgt aft meeting just now..yar she's not as narrow minded as someone else..like...mi?? hahaha..im one of dem i haf to admit..once u stepped on my tail for no good reason..tads it for u! black-listed for life..unless under special circumstances..we must try to be forgiving though it's not easy..so there's a 'U-TURN' in my dictionary..but but but..for certain stuff only :D forgive can try..but forget..no matter how hard i tried..just cant do it..so..sry for pple who once chopped off my tail even aft i tried to fix it back..i just can forget..

just now i smell some medicated oil..then saw mummy applying it on her foot..i asked her if she's hurt or something..she said just a little..probably walked too much today..and then saw her lying on de bed when it's just 9 plus..n she dun slp tad early..i asked if she's tried and if nid mi to off de lights for her to slp..but she said she's not slping yet..then i noe something's weird again..she's emo-ing again..haiss..so there goes my counselling session..i dun like mummy to be emo..cos it does influence mi..in future if emo emo like her how sia?

i asked why does she sound so unhappy..n if she has any worries again..she said no..i then saw her eyes like got tears..then i asked why is she crying? is she in pain? is it financially again? is it daddy made u angry or sad again? or isit any of us made u angry again? all no..then y are u crying????? "im not crying..im just tearing.." dots alrite why? she said im de only one in this entire hse who will ask her y does she seems sad n y is she crying..any troubles or worries again? are u hurt? etc..erm..shld i put it this way..im more observant than de other 2?

sometimes i think over n over abt wanting to ask her or not b4 i actually ask her abt it..cos i dun want ltr it's actually me myslf who angered her and i ask her myslf abt it..isnt it like banging my own head on de wall i bulit? alrite but it's better to ask than to let her keep emo-ing n all of us has to suffer wid her..keep having question marks above our heads.."ehh who made her angry ar? u isit? or u?....mi mehh? i nvr lehh..i dun rmb doing anything to anger her..WHO SIA? ohhhhh daddy!!!!" anyhow bomb only...hahaha..

alrite anw in de end she told me n i counselled her..even if i cant actaully really solve her problems..at least i helped her by de-stressing..so she haf no chance to accumulate n got no where to vent..if dun do regular psychological check-ups..n de volcano errupts, tads it man!! all of us noe how scary it is yea? a listening ear or a crying shoulder can help..u dun haf to say something..just maintain de eye contact to show tad u are listening..n u ARE really listening..

alrite tads all for now..btw b4 i end..i haf to declare one thing..that..this is MY BLOG..de main thing is to share wad eva i want to..in short..i dun gif a damn if i offend anyone through my post..this is a medium where i say wadeva i wana say and wadeva i feel abt somthing..as i said this is MY blog..i say again..MMMYYYYYYYY..n i dun gif a shit! im proud im arrogant! SOOO? i hate pple who are like tad..but it doesnt mean tad i cant be like this..becos i am like this..so i dun like pple ard mi to be even more proud n arrogant than mi..i like humble pple..so hopefully i can get influenced..so dun eva step on my tail..n i haf 9! try stepping on all of dem..u'll be dead b4 u noe it! so betta beware..

Labels: so what? i don't need you

today i dint go sch again..ehh dunno if de lecturer took attendance manually again..hu cares anw..

ohh this morning while im still having my beauty sleep..a call came n Hui picked up..she told mi it sounds like my teacher..hahahaa..im like "wad de!!? not again!! so fast 1st warning letter?" so far this sem i haven get any warning letter..lol..hopefully i can stay away as far as possible fm it..oh de warning letter is abt my attendance luhh..then i took over de fone..wasnt my mentor luhh..pheww~ was my course manager..haha wad business do i have wid her??

as mentioned Hui want to transfer to Nursing..so she had her exit interview in her SIT and then a few days ago she had her interview for internal transfer to nursing in SHS..she mentioned tad it wasnt too smooth..de nursing course manager Ms. Tan keep picking on her? keep questioning like u noe.."why should we accept you?" "what is nursing to you?" "ur IT grades arent very appealing..wad makes u so sure tad in nursing u can do well instead?" "nursing is tough.." "wad is passion? those 5-pointers who can go JC instead they chose nursing..this is passion.." "do u wana reconsider again?" HOW HURTING!!!!!! oh Hui cried halfway tru de interview..if its mi i may cry too..so mean luhh..tsktsk..poor thing..

ohh back to topic..hahaa..she asked mi abt how i think abt her transfering of course..and if im suportive or not..wad have i mentioned to her abt nursing..etc..alrite i answered her qns perferctly..hahahaa..i hope..at least she dint shoot qns at mi..aiyah no problem de luhh..even if she dint call mi i noe she can pass..Ms Tan just wana see how she ans her qns..if she's prepared for nursing..it's really not simple..not even saying to be a nurse..it's not easy to score well throughout de 3 yrs..man just like mi..HELLPPPP MEEE~~!!!!!! hah ok..yepp im positive tad she can pass this internal transfer..GREAT!!

i stayed at home whole day..i helped mummy wid de hsework chores..at least she wont haf to busy wid those stuff when she get home..and i made potato-egg salad again!! :)) erm personally i think de previous time was better..kor said this time it taste better instead..mummy said nxt time de black pepper can put more..and asked mi to put in more onions..eewwww i dun like it tads y i picked de smallest onion today..haha she prefer de fers time..Hui too..cos..i forgot her reasons..lol..but im not really satisfied is cos this time rnd de potatoes were very hard to cook!! cooked twice n it's only 95% done..sian..mummy brought a diff type of potato this time..probably..

the mashed eggs..

on de left is mayo+salt+black pepper. on de right is onion..i had a hard time getting it done..im tearing..*sobsob

here all of them :))

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yesshh lab skill test is finally over! i got de feeling i can pass..yess just let mi pass..cos i only started to study this afternoon in de library abt 3hrs b4 de paper..so yar :) haha..i really tried mugging..but dint really memorise it luhh..there isnt much to memorise..it's quite logical?? anw i just leave everything to God..yepp i prayed and left all in His hands b4 i start my paper :)) here..we all were mugging in de library..hahaa..

my space..

this guy sat beside mi..he ar..just now blow his nose damn loud sia!! so disgusting!!! no manners! but ok la he quite polite..haha..he still ask mi for permission b4 he sat beside mi..and b4 he left he pushed in de chair :)) good boy..

wana relieve stress ar..haha..was looking ard and i saw this orr-cheh on my left leg..haha..then i tot of Shannen..she fell on mon..tsk poor thing..she got A LOT of big big orr-chehs on both ler legs..and got herslf a lesion on her knee..poor thing..speaking of which..she almost fell today aft de papers..she missed de steps..tskk..

haiss today my ID got confiscated..though it's not de fers time..hahh..but felt sick lorr..gotta make de effort to cook up some lame stupid stories to explain for ur act..alrite i dint attend de lecture..was have my sweet dream on my bed and left my card wid my frens to help mi tap..and all got caught..erm actually only just hu were absent, ID got confiscated..so i haf to go n get my card back when i reach sch just now..

ohh actually this mon i got up and attend de 1st lecture at 9am..not bad..for so may wks i dint attend..tad day Regina n WenJing dint attend..rare! those hu nvr fail to attend dint turn up..and slackers like mi turned up..lol..dunno wads rong..when i told dem i attended dey were so shocked..and b4 tad dey gave mi tad "i dun believe..are u sure??" face..mean! Regina still told WJ tad she's very sure tad im still lazing ard on my bed at tad hr..HAHAHA surprise!! i attended!! :DD

faces! many pple doubt mi sia..my cooking skills..my ability to wake up in de morning..lol..nah i just dun show wad im capable of..hahaas..anw WJ let mi watch a DVD in lib on tad mon..while de rest were studying..tsk WJ is a bad influence..and it's so funny de show..i brought back home for Hui to watch..but she dun find it funny..for de whole entire show..her face only had one expression.. tad frowning with question marks face..weird..lol..she's like.."i tot u said it was funny? i dun find this funny..it's a strange, errie and pervertic show..."

it's called 'The Stepford Wives" watched b4? it's lame! lol..i love de dresses dey wear btw! :)) it's abt this town..they are hiding a secret..the wives in de town were impossibly beautiful and flawless..too perfect and their husbands were all very happy..why is this so? hmmm better to find out urslf..if 're as smart as mi or even smarter..u'll guess out b4 de ans is told in de movie..hahaa..Hui is soooooooo slowwwwwww..is she my sister? hahaa..jk!

oh and ytd Shannen taught mi how to tie up my hair wid a stick! not tree stick..something like a chopstick? haha..tad sort..im fixing my hair tad way since ytd..it's fun n im gonna buy a nice one and show it out..but b4 tad..i'd prefer if i had shorter fringe :)) so just wait and see!

and we tried to study ytd too at some bench area..mi n Regina slackers luhh..listen music..laze ard..sleep..eat..and supposingly doing our writings instead we drew..view my masterpiece..

im just tired :) and then..here..studying!! :)) but not mi of cos! erm btw this beautiful hand is mine :D

here..wad i've done on top was actually trying to study then..buay tarhan already started to draw..

Regina wrote my name..haha..i like de colours!



later Regina taught mi de SIA stewardess hairstyle :)) im more then interested to know! haha my dream of cos..mm i dint mention b4..Regina had a cousin who is a stewardess under SIA..mrried wid kids! power still can maintain..she said her cousin was given 3 mths if i dint rmb rongly..to get her body back in shape aft delivery..cool..

and her cousin saw us (de whole clique) when we were out last sem..and she tot im the one who intended to be a part of being SIA stewardess..i mean i do..but it was supposed to be Shannen..she declared to us? and Regina told her cousin abt it..so she saw us this grp n she tot im Shannen who wanted to be one of dem..oOps! read between de lines..dun nid me to spell it out isnt it? :D and she told Regina tad i can just come n join us it's not a problem..im sure to get in..hehh..Regina told mi abt this of cos..i dint cook it up myslf hahh..

and this now..b4 de tut starts we sat outside..and this is wad Regina took..

this girl is disgusting..of cos de guys will like it..alrite de pervertic ones..it's so unglam larr..nowadaes girls haf no self-consciousness sia..unless she did tad on purpose..it's super UGLYYYY!!



poor thing tad we had to take these fotos..too bad! who asked u to gif us de chance to share this wid de world :))

yepp and just now on my way home i saw a quite good looking guy and guess wad?? he was my sec sch klassmate..haha..chew shao liang! erm not much changes..just tad his hair is quite messy like a bird nest? yess i told him tad..hahaaa..he suan mi oso lorr!! he's like..now no more pimpes ar?? so clear now..lol..mean sia!

yes for those who haf nvr seen mi in my 16 and below..my skin condition was BADDD!!! since sec 1 a little by little..then sec 2 not so good..sec 3 tried to eliminate n control by going facial like twice a week or more i forgot..tad was terrible..so pain lor! i rmbed i went hm wid a pig head each time aft facial..lol..

so sec 3 and 4 is sometimes clear sometimes like got stung my hundreds of bees..then 17 onwards it's quite stabalised :)) like now! haha..it's soo soo soooooooo soooooooo much better now..an ugly duckling to a beautiful white swan is how i'd describe..yar to those who always bully mi when im young..u ugly thing! now im better!! :D

Regina asked mi to join Yek Pei's birthday celebration nxt fri..alrite im now really seriously saving up to buy my stuff..it's a long list man! and im damn bad at saving..i can take years to just save for a hair cut!! alrite probably just not motivatd to save..de present money i'll fork out of cos..but i dun intend to join dem aft sch and spend money on shopping or plainly on food..i dun wana spend..tads bad i noe..

these few days i felt kinda selfish..de bdae celebration is already one..then mummy asked mi to find a day when we can all go as a family to visit gong gong..he's in de nursing home beside CGH..some orange valley??? it's nursing home not old folks' home ok! and gong gong very not cooperative man..he keep rejecting de op he's supposed to receive..man it's just cataract..ok la i mean it's common..perhaps he's just afraid..and that's 3 times of rejection already!! everyone has to go tru this..

now in Aust it's VERY VERY COMMON tad TEENAGERS haf cataract..cos of de ozone layer there.. and then de UV rays..u noe luhh..so nowskin disease and cataract is very common there..wonder why dey still risk to satay themslf under de sun..now in S'pore im already trying to avoid too much of sun exposure lorr!!

sian coming wk i've got 3 tests and 2 ICAs..bio prac test, stats open book test which is like 60% individual marks man! and i dint attend de prac lessons..dots..how m i gonna pass? bio i oso dunno wad topic is coming up cos i dint attend quite a lot of lects too..lastly is my lab skills prac test! completed theory today nxt wk is practical..whoo..

im left wid gastric lavage to try on..but skills lessons are over.so i've got no chance to practice..just hope i can either get one last chance to practice or just try to pass if i kena tad procedure..i wana get urinary catheter insertion+donning of sterile gloves..im more confident of that procedure..de others..only tried once..not so confident..oso got NG tube insertion+gastric lavage/gastric aspiration, PEG+bladder washout..6 prcedures altgt..but 2 skills tested at a go..based on de case scenario u pick up..all de best to myslf! :))

alrite so much of sharing today..hope u enjoyed..im tired starring in front of de comp now..wana rest my eyes now..by watching TV!! LOL..and eating while enjoying my show..nites! :D

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LOVE STORY - TAYLOR SWIFT

now this song is my pet..haha..de MV is so cute..i love de lyrics too..

ppssstt i wish i would haf de chance to wear this kind of early english costume :((

so beautiful..

here's the lyrics...

We were both young when I first saw you

I closed my eyes and the flashback starts

I'm standing there

On a balcony in summer air

See the lights,

see the party,

the ball gowns

I see you make your way through the crowd

And say hello

Little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles

And my daddy said, "stay away from Juliet"

And I was crying on the staircase

Begging you, please don't go

And I said

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone

I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run

You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess

It's a love story

Baby, just say yes

So, I sneak out to the garden to see you

We keep quiet cause we're dead if they knew

So close your eyes

Escape this town for a little while

Oh oh

Cause you were Romeo, I was the scarlet letter

And my daddy said, "stay away from Juliet"

But you were my everything to me

I was begging you, please don't go

And I said

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone

I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run

You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess

It's a love story

Baby, just say yes

Romeo, save me

They try to tell me how I feel

This love is difficult, but it's real

Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess

It's a love story

Baby, just say yes

Oh oh

I got tired of waiting

Wondering if you were ever coming around

My faith in you is fading

When I met you on the outskirts of town

And I said

Romeo, save me

I've been feeling so alone

I keep waiting for you, but you never come

Is this in my head

I don't know what to think

He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring

And said

Marry me, Juliet, you'll never have to be alone

I love you and that's all I really know

I talked to your dad

Go pick out a white dress

It's a love story

Baby, just say yes

Oh oh oh

Oh oh oh oh

'Cause we were both young when I first saw you

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HOT N COLD KATY PERRY

the MV is kinda lame..hahahaa..but i love this song! :D

Labels: we fight we break-up, we kiss we make-up

half plate gone!!

getting lesser and lesser.........

finally gone!! and so clean sommore..LOL..lucky i saved some in de fridge!! lol..but when i got back..it's ALL GONE!!!

just now in lab saw some disgusting scene..lol Regina took a photo of it..but hers cant zoom so i used mine to zoom in..man wad a spoiler..my precious fone..ltr kena virus sia..tsktsk..

(de one on de most right leaning forward position)

yepp here it is..eewwwww..so unglam!

as u can see tad female has zhao-geng..was that red or maroon? wadeva! de other day was more disgusting..she tied plaits man..nth rong with tying tad but she tied one at each side..and not one whole bundle..is just a small amt of hair then she tie plait..ma chiam Qing Dynasty or which eva dynasty era sia..wad de heck..so gross!!

i had my lunch over at de louya canteen..de new japanese stall..wa regret sia..anw i will never go over tad stall if i haf de choice..lol..it's really horrid..de unagi..it's FISHY!!! alrite its a fish but de fishy smell is still strong..and i can feel de bones..n it actually poked my gums..but good thing tad it's soft..ok it's supposed to be softer lorr!! wad de heck..and i can actually feel de bones when i swallowed down de fish..disgusting!! i hate fish man..de smell and de scales!! eekkkkkk..but i love japanese fish..esp SASHIMI!!!!!

in a high-class..ok just a decent good japanese retaurant..top/good-quality unagi fish..it will be well cooked n there wont be any of that FISHY smell..it's soft ..u can barely feel de presence of de bones..and de sauce just goes well wid de unagi..but this one??? totally cannot make it man..my potato salad is definitely better!!! but Shannen likes it..i ate half of it i cant take it anymore..and she finishes up for mi..thanks..haha..at least food not wasted..probably she hasnt try de real unagi b4..must be some cheapo fish..aiyah cant expect good things fm sch de luhh..and de price u pay..it's only 3.7 bucks of cos this lousy fish will swim along rite? totally hate it! so now i vote for only Macs at nyp..de others ALL FAIL!! i rather eat my mommy's plain porridge..

and i tell u..not only de fish is CMI..de rice is super cold..i WANT MY RICE TO BE HOT..at least warm please!! idiot..de only conclusion i can make for de japanese stalls in nyp is..which eva set u order..and in de entire set..it's only the msg SOUP tad is for human to consume..totally CMI!!!!!!

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Joy dun seems to be in a good mood today..she dint smile like how she used to..must be missing mi too much for de past week..hahaha..she's quite uncooperative today..dunno wads happening..not feeling well???

haha look at her..i guess she's asking mi "what do u want wid mi??"..lol..she's fustrated wid daddy Qing Gui..hahaaaa..oOps..

that's mummy Yi Fan..man i rmb on her wedding day she was sooooo beautiful luhh..cos normal days she's like anything anyhow wadeva type..haha..n her hair was beautiful too..not long ltr she chopped off her long curly hairs..man wad a waste..ok i noe she must be thinking tad it's hard to maintain n it's rather irritating..lol..

alrites this is my soon-to-be masterpiece..lol..still headache-ing over it..haha..look at that man..still so far away from de real piece..cute rite? when im done i'll take more picts of it..n Joy wid her present fm me!! :))

recently there are a lot of sweet looking babies in church..Joy is one of them..Caleb is oso very cute..im sure when he grows up he will be a lady-killer man!! very charming looking :)) yumyumm..hais i'll be too old for him luhh..HAHA..n his little brother..super cute too..lokks a little blur..haha tad adds on to his cuteness..lol..he's still a little baby..

n Roxzyanne..ok if i dint rmb rongly tad shld be how her name is spelled..dunno luhh..she's like a fair lady..ok not lady yet..so she's a fair little princess..her skin is so beautiful man..i noe cos she's still young luhh..but her skin is really very fair and pretty..i wish i had skin like her..ok at least my face complexion..haha..she'll grow up to be a beautiful girl too..hmm..oh Alicia too..she's another hot one..alrite i mean when she grows up..she very pretty too! but her complexion is more of like tanned..a little darker..n her eye lashes..long a lots man!! tsktsk..envious!! k nvm im very much satisfied wid myslf..good thing im not in de same generation wid dem..dunno how to compete wid dem..hahahaaa..these sweet looking angels..

Labels: our Lord says 'let the children come to me....'

Labels: show some LOVE

following is the real "Thriller" by Michael Jackson :)) be patient with the MV..it's kinda sick though..haha..compare their dance..

Labels: For some..13 feels like it was just yesterday. For Jenna..it was.

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