.Friday, December 12, 2008 ' 11:11 AM Y
miss(understood)
hi everyone! as u all can notice..i've changed my playlist! yess Christmas! let us all welcome this joyous occasion! that our Lord Jesus Christ was born on Christmas day, and remember what He has done for us :D it feels so great to be saved! i love Christmas~ im looking forward to it :))ytd nite i finally went over to talk to mummy and apologised to her..de cold war was near 2 weeks! good thing it's over now..as usual for me..i'll cry a river just by saying sorry..man i sure feel swollen now..after mummy forgave mi i went over to search for Shannen's no. cos i deleted it in a fit of anger..wad was i planning to do back then? somehow when i was so down..Lord's words came flowing through my mind..i remembered all His teachings and back then i thought that i shld just humble myslf down like how our Lord has done as an example for us to see, and just forgive the evil things tad others done to you..it's really not easy esp for such a proud person like me..full with pride..if i were to do it by myslf..this battle may just last forever..but though God all things are possible..and i prayed and prayed..finally de matter is kinda resolved now..but one thing that is still in doubt..does she actually realise abt her own faults in this whole incident? i do hope she noes it herslf..cos im sure de pple ard her not only sided her but did not let her noe abt her wrongs..at least when im so full of myslf my sister and some of my frens asked mi if noe where my fault lies in this whole incident..im glad i've realised myslf abt de things i've done wrong..and they were glad for mi tad i can see it too :) thank God for opening my eyes and let mi realise my own mistakes..and i sure hope tad she really understand this whole thing and realise tad my apology is sincere..and her forgiveness is genuine too..thank God!actually ytd evening im already not feeling well..like sick..sis too..cos de nite b4 ytd we both had a cold..and de nxt day we sure feel sick..now better but still wid cold and cough..oh ytd my eyes started to swell up cos of de cold weather my skin is rather sensitive to esp when my immunity is low..and here comes my swollen eyes..it wasnt a shock to me actually..just tad it hasnt appear for long time..now suddenly it came back..it sure proves tad im super DOWN! plus when i apologised to mummy i cried a river..yess and wad more? my eyelids gets fatter and fatter..then till i apologised to Shannen..i looked like as if i've injected excessive botox!! but at least this morning it looks better..and i tried applying hot-compress..bro said it's much better..at least more of my eyeballs can be seen now..lol! oh yar bro is back home from camp..he said it was fun..later shall ask him how was de camp..im sure it was fun too..Zion bishan combined wid Zion serangoon..de numbers were like WHOA! Faith is small but i like it..cos we grew up tgt and there are feelings attached to all of dem..it's like Faith is part of me..a few years ago i tried to leave but i realised i just cant..Faith is just like where i belong :)ok im asked to go out by a fren of mine but......HOW CAN I FACE DE PUBLIC WITH THIS FACE AND IN SUCH CONDITION? forget it..today i shall just stay put :) hopefully i can get better tml..from now on i must keep reminding myslf to be humble..i cant go on wid such attitude of mine..i must change..and i haf to stay close to God and His words..so that i can always remember His teachings and be a good testimony for others to see..i felt so much like a loser when i think of these qns to myslf "u called urslf a Christian? wid this kind of behaviour and attitude? u're just throwing Christianity's face!" there are a total of 2 big mistakes i've done with such attitude of mine..one is already enuff but i've not changed and de 2nd one comes..but..it's never too late to change and learn again :)) ohh boy Hui's bdae is coming real soon..like coming MONDAY!!!! there's a lot to prepare..alrite it's time to plan..after her bdae then i'll share abt it..cos she might be reading! haha :) just one sentence for u to rmb Hui, "dun put too much hope!" LOL!Labels: feel the atmosphere
